Thursday, October 29, 2009

My future magazine article....when lurv takes over...nd it knocks u down...

Hey people!!!
I wrote this listening to
Keri Hilson’s knock you down right after when love takes over – David
Guetta ft. Kelly Rowland. (Hence, the title) Lately I’ve just been on that sad love songs
p. Contrary to what you may think, I have not by any chance ‘fallen in or out of
love’. Not that love is a bad thing, but I think it is extremely overrated. And
can be dangerously unhealthy especially when one of the parties involved ‘falls’ helplessly
for the other and hi/her’s love isn’t exactly reciprocated.

Sometimes I wonder why people even bother to give love a shot after all the countless unhappy endings those before us have had as a result of ‘love’. Don’t get me wrong, I am not against love. I just don’t believe that most people actually understand the feelings they interpret as love. This applies especially to young people. I just don’t get why people just don’t settle for ‘like’. Why do they have to go all the way and profess ‘love’ for their gf or bf. To be honest, I find it rather nauseating when I see 14,15,16 year olds claiming to love their bfs or gfs. There’s nothing wrong in really liking someone. You don’t have to abuse the use of the word ‘love’ for people to take your relationship seriously! It’s funny how people think real life love is just like love in movies and songs.(we wish!)

On the real though, if love were that easy, I’d probably be in love right now sef. Just like this movie Angel eyes; Jim Caviezel falls helplessly in love with J’lo after she saves him from a terrible car crash that kills his wife and his son. Obviously they go through the whole break up and make up stage(like any other book, movie or song!) then finally live happily ever after! I know there are a million more movies like that but believe me, that Angels eyes brought tears to my eyes. I could totally feel their love all the way from where I was sitting on my couch. It felt soooo magical. But then again, it’s a freaking movie! The point of the movie was to give it that effect. My love songs p probably started right after I watched that movie.

Back in the real world, love can be rather discombobulating! There’s this girl I know that loves(or so she thinks) this guy I also know. The problem however is that the guy and her best friend are sooo close it’s hard to tell if the guy likes the best friend as a gf or as a good friend. Also, the best friend isn’t completely sure how she feels about the guy in question. So what does the babe do? Does she flick the love switch in her heart off if she finds out the guy does like(or perhaps love) her best friend? Is it really that easy to just stop loving somebody?

According to some cold-hearted bastards, it is! Just the other day, I was watching Dr.90210. A lady requesting for a tummy tuck told us her story: she loved a guy. The guy also loved her. They got married. Their love was so magical and beautiful. They had a baby together. One day, when the baby was only a few months old, the lady found a text message from the guy’s mistress on his phone. She confronts him. He apologizes and decides that he’s choosing the mistress over his wife. He simply didn’t love her anymore. Just like that! After getting her pregnant(losing her figure and everything), he just left!

I felt so bad for her! I just can’t imagine how she eventually pulled herself together( if love is as strong as they say it is). Left to me, that kind of rejection should be something you never recover from if you really did love the guy. (only if God intervenes sha).

Even the legendary Romeo and Juliet love story didn’t end happy. As for me, I’d rather just be really fond of a guy, enjoy his company and respect him(and make out with him too! LOL). That way, if he messes up or my fondness just isn’t as it was, no hearts are broken.

It’ll forever remain a mystery to me why some people intently hand over their hearts to others knowing fully well that the future cannot be predicted.
Well people, be sure to love healthily if you must love at all. After all, some people do say “ ‘Tis better to have loved and lost than to have not love at all”. Try not to need your bfs and gfs too much. And don’t for any reason be inspired to be the modern day Romeo or Juliet. Trust me, no love is worth dying for ;)

Be safe! X

Gf- girlfriend

And if you’re interested in sad love songs too, I highly recommend
:Forever & always by Taylor swift(very touching!),I’m only me when I’m with you by Taylor swift, I knew I loved you before I met you by Savage Garden, love like this by Natasha Bedingfield, Part of the list by Ne-yo, Unfaithful by Rihanna and My life would suck without you by Kelly Clarkson


So i dont reli hav anything interesting to say. i started Unilag last week....the first thing i have to say bout that is THE SUN IN UNILAG IS ON ANOTHER LEVEL!!! serzly! sun and me dont go well atal!!
apart from that i guess lag is reli not that bad. before i got ther i was expectin to seeee razzz yoruba speaking guys and girls errwher buh i was totally wrong. the ppl r actually aite. the classes r aite too i guess. thn therz ths mahd chicken place. their chicken is soooo skenzy!

therz also lots ov fresh dudes! my class ther r lyk 5 that hav caught my eye so far. sadly i dont tlk 2 ne ov em. i dont evn kno y. its lyk wen err body was formin their lil cliques nd all i wasnt der or sumn. nw errr1 has ppl dey roll with so iz kinda l8 4 me 2 try nd hang wiv ne1. therz ths 2 guys that r soo rude! like serzly, their rudeness disgust me!
lyk 1 day, i was walking wiv sum guy they knew nd they stop 2 say wasup,do that handshake thng guys do and totally IGNORE ME!!!! they dint evn try to avoid my eyes. they stared right at me thn walked away. the 2nd time, they wer seatin wiv som girl i kinda kno so wen i was passing by, the babe was like "hiiiii" nd im like "heyyyyy" nd they just stare right at me. nd they kept on staring lyk that! i was almost tempted 2 scream "its rude 2 stare!" mscheew.foolish boys. thn therz ths girl i fnk wnts 2 b my frnd buh d fng is tha i dnt reli hav tym 2 hang around the faculty nd 'be friends' wiv ha...

another thing: its like the boys in my class r reli reli serz no joke...havnt seen ne ov thm tryna put the moves on ne girl...the senior boys(jeez! that's soooo high sch ryt?) k the upper-class men however r nt evn takin it ez wiv us freshmen atal...therz nowher i go that som1 doesnt offer to walk me, drive me,show me a short cut or jus talk 2 me!
uni boys! therz lots ov cute 1s tho...enuf bout skul jor

i exed boyfy!!!! aseen i felt so weird evn callin him that...ugh! that boy got on my nerves mehn...u wldnt evn bliv hw i dd it! i snt him an offline msg on msn! yh. i kno im a coward! ha! buh serzly agreeing to b his gf was by far the stupidest lamest fng ive eva done in my lyf! lyk no joke! me that i used 2 smh at ppl that jus go out wiv nebody...thnk god it was jus a month sha...wen i nw tld bff1(the frnd dah was close 2 boyfy) she was nw lyk r u serz? i guess i dint reli kno him that well oh..she nw had the effontry 2 sae tis gud 4 me, nxt tym i wont go out wiv som1 i dint kno nefn bout!
i dint evn hav tym 2 remind ha tha she was the 1 hu tld me:hez a reli nyc dude oh,serzly...nd hez cute too(atal!). boyfy is jus d 1 i kinda feel bad 4...he musta bin soo vexd tha we dint evn get 2 make out like that...heheee..thank goodness 4 that!i dont evn kno if he reli gt the msg cuz he nw started txtin me more thn he used to evn afta saen if thaz wah i want tis cul...disgu! enuf bout him tew joh!

nw 2 exciting news!! we might b movin!!! aseeen im sooo excited! im nt showin my mom ne excitement bout it tho cuz it seem ne tym i let ha kno hw excited i am, she pulls the rug ryt from unda me..lyk she dd wiv the whole goin 2 yankee 4 uni fng....hillzzz

btw im stl vexin 4 my u imagine wat he sed? lemme tel u: wen i chkd my waec result, mumsy was lyk cal ur dad nd tel him oh...she nw cald him on ha fone nd was lyk hold on for (my name). next thing, he says, "what? you want money shey?" i was sooo weak! me nd my dad used 2 b soo cul! we usd 2 jus tlk bout random fngs, gossip bout my mom nd my sisters...i neva evn ask him 4 money! if i want money frm him i ususally snd my mom or my sista, i neva reli ask him! he nw sed such a hurtful fng! mschewww. parents!

thats all i hav 4 nw...
peace nd love!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

:::mY QueST foR SeLf-aSsErTiVeNeSS:::

Recently I’ve been thinking bout how much I’ve changed this past year. Turns out I’m not reli who I thought I was. Turns out I don’t reli lyk the things I thought I liked. I don’t reli hate the things I thought I hated. I’m not so good at the things I thought I was good at. I’m actually not as bad at the things I thought I was horrible at. *sigh* I guess I haven’t reli known myself these past years.

I thought I hated country music. Asin, hate is even a mild word.
I thought green was the skenziest color in the whole wide world.
I thought bright-colored eye shadow was the ish.
I thought TAO was sooo cool.
I thought TWO was reli weird.
I thought my prom would be the bunzest day this year.
I thought Jonas brothers were a rock band.
I thought I’d b in UMD by now.
I liked plantain.
I believed I didn’t reli need make-up.
I thought I needed a bf.

Taylor Swift is the best fng tha happnd 2 my iPod.
I totally heart the color purple…green’s stl aite tho.
I think smoky eyes r def the ish.
I kno TAO is the most annoying guy I’ve ever known.
I don’t think TWO is all that weird. Hez jus different.
Prom wasn’t all that.
I kno the Jonas bruvs r jus a two-hit wonder pop group.
Unilag is my fate oh…for nw…
I hate plantain…asin I cant stand it…
I’ve realized make-up is pretty essential evn if it hardly shows.
I kno I dint need a bf.

Also I found out I cant reli cook lyk I thot I cld. Asin all this tym mumc was naggin tha I’ll regret nt being in d kitchen wiv ha I thought yh yh, hu tld ths woman I cnt cook. I mean I cn mentally cook lots of things buh I neva hav the tym 2 try em out. Hmmmn. Do boys nowadays evn reli care if their future wives can cook? I don’t fnk so… I cn cook sum fancy stuff sha, buh sum ov the basics r a problem. Jus ydae, I made spaghetti and lez jus say it dint end up so good. Common spaghetti oh! I was so embarrassed! My mum was nw tryna act lyk it wasn’t dah bad…I would hav sooo preferred 4 ha 2 spark mehn…hw cnt I make mahd spaghetti at 16??!!! Hisss. D spaghetti itself wasn’t bad buh the sauce was ‘too red’. *sighs*

Then I also found out I don’t hav a talent. I always thot my talent was writing buh I’m startin 2 fnk iz jus cuz I was too lazy to delve into any other activity lyk ballet(too late nw) or running(nt evn possible) or swimming or debate or drama(stage fright!). nw I feel lyk a total under-achiever. Lyk serzly I don’t hav any special skill that I cn use 2 compete against sum1 else. To me I believe that if u cant evn dare 2 compete against ppl wiv ur similar talent thn u’re probly nt tha talented. My mumc fnks I’m wrong bout that. She says err1 has 2 work on their talent reli hard b4 they cn compete and dah competition isn’t errthn in lyf. She may ryt sha.
Iz sha vexin dah afta reli feelin lyk sum writer, all of a sudden I feel lyk my stories suck! Asin I was evn considering publishing sum ov ths stories nd nw I feel lyk they’re totally worthless. Mayb I shoulda taken literature in sch. Serzly. All writers shld b able 2 write poems nd stuff dah rhyme ryt? Well I cant. So I’ll probly hav 2 work on a new talent. Any ideas??? *sigh*

p.p.s I dint mention dancing or singing cuz I alredi kno I cn dance buh I don’t fnk I hav d tym 2 work on my moves 2 become reli talented and as for singing, im tone-deaf.

P.s I’m sorry God, if I sound ungrateful.

TAO-The annoying one
TWO-The weird one.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

~~::SAtdaE NyT rAmBLiNgS::~~

Its probly stale gist that life is an unfair bitch. Buh reli, wat can one do? Nw to serz business 

I’ve become a jealous stalker!!! Lmao…buh serzly tho, I have.

It started off wiv my bff’s leaving me nd startin uni. Iz nt lyk I’m 1 dumb olodo dah cldnt get into uni oh, I’m jus chillin 4 my stupid sch 2 start…
Sha errdae they’ll nw b txtin/callin me…givin the lowdown ov their nu skuls…huz hawt,huz not, huz razz, huz dumb, huz broke, huz a whore,huz a cross dresser blah blah…
Twas all fun in tha beginning, buh nw iz gerrin rather old...serzly…im tired ov hearin gist ov ppl that r(nd will neva) b related 2 my life…lyk 2dae 4 instance, I got lyk 55 txts frm bff1 bout hw shez settlin dwn,hw nyc ha room is, hw hot the guys r, hw ‘jus der’ the girls r,hw sum bbe wuz throwin herself shamelessly at sum guy. *rolls eyes*(yh, we’re shallow lyk that) lol .don’t get me wrong, im elated 4 my frnds…serzly…im real happy 4 them buh I jus cant take it nemore!!! Am usually the 1 wiv overflowing gist nd all, iz so one kind dah im d 1 jus goin: ‘r u serz?’ ‘omg,dd she reli??!’ ‘Ho my! He sounds hot oh!’.

Bff2’s own iz jus d height! She keeps sayin d same gist over nd over again! The annoying part is wen shez bout 2 hang up she nw goes, “It’s reli cool tho. Really. I’m enjoyin it. Lots ov fresh ppl. Blah blah” thn she’ll nw be giggling lyk sum cute guy’s tickling ha. Msccheww. Lool.

Jealousy will not kill me oooooooooooooooo. Lool…iz aite sha…I’d rather b hearin that my frnds r havin a ball thn hearin hw much they h8 their skul…

Nw to the stalker business:
I don’t evn kno hw ths 1 started. It myt evn hav started on blogville oh…nah…yh, I rememba…he snt me a frnd req on fb. 4 nw lez jus call him “the smart one” (TSO) lol…sha I nw wnt 2 go nd shek howt TSO. I found out dah he wuz frnds wiv 1 ov my sista’s sorta ex-bff. D bbe is reli an allrite bbe so I accepted d req cuz ov ha(nd yh his pic wuz interesting). Sometime later, I found out that TSO was a writer. Considerin hw I hav a fng 4 guys wiv talent, I was instantly drawn 2 him. I started chkin out his notes on fb.(yh, im jobless lyk that).
Thn I find out bout his blog and I become immensely addicted to it! Nxt fng I kno, I bookmark his fb profile &his blog. In short, I know a whole lot bout ths guy nd hez only spoken(written) 3 words 2 me! Obviously I feel lyk a foolish stalker!

Nxt came “the funny one” (TFO). Ths 1 has bin my frnd lyk eva since I joined fb. Aseeen sinceeeee...u kno that tym ppl jus used 2 add nebody that lukd aite nd probly had frends in common wiv. Sha 1 dae lyk ths I found myself in TFO’s notes. Ho my! Ths dude can write!!! Shettt…he cn write a book wiv james patterson mehn…for real…nd his style is so real,nd funny, nd young! I nw bookmarked his profile too. So basically, a dose ov 1 ov his notes errdae ‘makes the medicine go down’. Lol. Thn I began reading his wall,his posts,errfng bout him sha…asin TFO is soo funny! Plus we’ve got sooo much in common! We lyk d same kinda music, movies nd evn tv series! We’re jus meant to be mehn…only that hez only sed (written) bout 5 words 2 me. I hav a feelin he remembas I exist sha. kmt.

Y cant the guys that I like, like me bak?!! Y don’t I like the ones that like me?! (including my so called bf??) **sighs** I tire mehn.

I gotta do sumn bout boyfy mehn…ths has gone on long enuf…