tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66231446424690989772024-02-20T15:10:38.266-08:00~*~ cLUelesS ~*~random thots ov a confused teenage gurl...a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.comBlogger31125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-32380619863477299032011-02-09T02:42:00.000-08:002011-02-09T03:08:59.529-08:00Its been a while....I tried to start a new blog yesterday but it didnt work out. i couldnt quite find a good reason to leave here. even though i havent written in a while and it feels like i'm talkin to myself most of the time,i still feel at home here.<br /><br />i dont know how come i just noticed this about myself but i find it extremely hard to flow with people i just met. like i cant ever have a good first convo. i always say something daft. i know i'm shy and blah blah. but recently i've been unattractively timid! thats how a guy i just met was telling me bout himself then he went "I'm a power person. I just like to be the one n-charge ,you know" and out of all the dumbest reponses i could possibly give i chose to say "oh? so that means you think you're always right?" then he gives me this really blank stare. yes,i know that was highly off point! i should stop trying too hard abi? i should have just done what i would normally have done- nodded! like really,is it so wrong to be quiet and shy or whatever. i bet all boys dont like talkative,loud girls do they?<br /><br />funny thing is that, when i'm with certain people(some which i also just met), this shyness thing doesnt come up. like i'm totally free. but some people even when i've known them for twenty years i just cant picture us rolling on the floor laughing and slapping each other on the back and stuff like that.<br /><br />oh whatever.a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-33647207881477375512010-03-23T00:51:00.001-07:002010-03-23T00:51:52.492-07:00the ppl...Ok I just found out sumn bout myself. I am EXTREMELY lazy! Aseen! I cnt evn bliv myself! Lyk 2day for example I gradually watched my cell phone battery die cuz I wuz too lazy to stand up nd get the charger! My lazyness has always bin der buh nowadays its growin to xtreme levels! I guess I’m just not one of those ppl hu do necessary things despite hw tired they are. I wld rather just sleep! <br /><br />So I decided to write about the ppl in my life hu reli matter.<br /> rather than just breeze or talk bout school or boys…<br /> So here goes:<br /><br />My Mom: As much as this woman pisses me off almost every blessed day, I love her with all my heart. Shez pushy, fussy, partial, indecisive, forgetful and temperamental but then again shez there for my sisters and i. shez bin there since my dad left nd shez stl there so I guess I gotta hand that to her. She may not be the mom you love to gist with and tell all your problems but she’ll definitely be the mom that makes sure you succeed at everything you do. She may ground you unneccesarily but at least she makes sure you don’t starve. She may embarrass you infront of your friends and maybe even your crush but she provides the cool clothes that get you to a lot ov cool places. She may be stingy wiv cash sometimes but she remembers to cover you with a blanket when you fall asleep infront of the tv. She may criticise everything you do but shez also real quick to bundle you with compliments and praises when she deems it fit.<br />I feel bad from time to time when I remember the nasty things ive said (in my mind) to my mom. I mean, I know shez not the perfect mom or evn the ‘just ok’ mom but shez enuf for my sisters and I and im real grateful that shez in my lyf.<br /><br />My Dad: I’m sure he or anyone else wont bliv he made it to the list of ppl that matter in my life. Don’t get me wrong, I heart my pops. Lyk serzly, I love him die buh hez just not reli in my life lyk he shld be or at least lyk I wnt him to be. Sure, we talk from time to time buh I wish we had sumn more. I wish we had that father-daughter relationship people talk bout. These days, I feel like there’s hardly anything for us to talk about except school, money, his health and computers. Even just last week, I went to go see him(actually to collect money) with my friends. While I was there, we didn’t even gist at all. Not even about computers! I really hope I’m not becoming redundant to him. Like those kinda kids you just hand out money to but you reli don’t care about.<br />Like back in the day, me and my dad used to gist dieee! I remember when we still had those NITEL landline phones. I would call him at work and gist him bout rubbish. One time we were even arguing bout which of the Destiny’s child members was the hottest. He claimed it was Kelly but I insisted it was my girl, Bee. We sha both agreed Michelle was just der as a pretty face. *Sigh* those days!!<br />All in all sha, I’m really grateful my dad is in my life. Even if he’s not exactly one call away…<br /><br />My older sister: if u see the way me and my older sister act towards each other, someone who doesn’t know us at all might actually mistake our love for hate. We constantly tease each other like crazy. It’s soo bad that we hardly even compliment ourselves. Over the years, we’ve come to understand each other’s criticisms and take them on lightly.<br />Sometimes I wish I could slap the caps off my sister’s knees (got that from everybody hates chris) but I remember how she’s the only big sister I’ll ever have. One day for instance, we yelled at each other for hours over a pair of jeans and I almost thought my sister would never speak to me again. I don’t know if she does it on purpose oh, but she’s always cheating me! then when I’m protesting, I say all sorts of things I shouldn’t say then the fight grows bigger then I feel foolish. Don’t y’all just hate that feeling of stupidity when you realise you over-reacted???<br />Sha I wouldn’t trade my sister for anything!! Even if she doesn’t spare a dress I’ve begged her for for over a year, she’s still my lovable huggable sweeriepie! That thing vexes me sha, I’ll beg and beg for her clothes and she just wont spare them! Ok fine, she does sometimes but after I’ve begged like a foolish cow. the annoying thing is I give her my stuff almost freely! Stingy girl oshi.<br />Even my friends at school know that my sister’s opinion means a lot to me. and they never forget to remind me. according to them, everytime I buy something, I mutter “I wonder what my sister’ll think”<br />It’s kinda true sha. <br /><br />My little sister: this child just makes me laugh. I swear sometimes when I’m at school and I remember her, I just chuckle to myself. People’ll probably think I’m crazy but gisting with my little 12 year old sister is one of my favourite past-times. Even if she doesn’t know half of the people in the gist, she really pays attention and is all awed and fascinated at my stories. It’s like she just adores me sometimes. She’s constantly encouraging me to finish my writings. Everytime I dress up, she’ll always be ready with a compliment. After my older sister finishes dissing my fashion combinations, it’s always a relief when my little sister comes and completely worships it.<br />I tell her about boys, my friends, school work, my older sister’s bugging, my mom’s hassling and she tells me the same. Sometimes she’s really shy about talking bout school to me cuz I fnk she doesn’t want to feel like she’s not cool enuf. Like my sec. sch experiences cant be compared with her dry ones so she can be really stingy with gist sometimes. <br />Also, she’s like a wosre version of me. you know the way, my confidence ours sporadically? Her own is extreme! Even the way she walks sometimes, you can tell she’s not feeling herself. I worry for her though cuz I kno it’s a terrible feeling. I don’t even think she has friends like that like that. Maybe just people she talks to and ols with but not friends asin friends. She has me tho. she knos I’ll always hav her bak. Evn wen my mom and older sister are all up in her grill, I step in and tell them to chill. They’ll now be saying am indulging her in rubbish. Warreva jare. <br /><br />My Bff1: I have two bestest friends in the whole wide world. I don’t count family cuz if your family isn’t your best friend, who else’ll nw be?<br />Ehen so me and my bff1 have been friends since jss3(that’s like year 9). It all started wen we had 2 stay back in school for extension classes durin easter break. The girls I used to roll wiv started actin kinda funny. Till today, I stl don’t kno why buh anywayz I started to roll wiv bff1 and fashied dem. She was in my music class. So we basically became real tight during that extension time. Especially wen I found out her mom and dad were also broken up just like mine. <br />Ever since then till now, we’ve always had each other’s back. We haven’t ever even really fought. Obviously, we’ve gotten on each other’s nerves but we’ve never really had cause to really yell at ourselves and cuss out each other.<br />We both started different unis last year and since then we haven’t reli seen each other much. Her school is lyk som prison and they’re only allowed out for holidays and a few exeats. Even this last Christmas hols, we hung out only once. She already had new friends from school that time sef. It wasn’t all that awkward sha. We stl had fun. <br />Like 2 wks ago we were talking over the fone nd I was telling her bout som party I went for and all and how people frm ha sch dint evn show evn tho it was organised by one of them. She now sed that they have priorities blah blah blah. Shet! I felt rather foolish! Like wasn’t it me and her that were both party people back in the day? So we didn’t have priorities then abi? Its not like she sed it with attitude or anything ssha. She evn sed not to mind her that she was jokin but it stl stung mehn. Shez on a first class now btw. Havnt written my first exams yet but the pressure is to not be the unserious one is there mehn. Imagine if afta all my parting I don’t nw get a first class?I hope she’ll stl have my back Sha sha sha, She always does. And I’m grateful for her.<br /><br />My bff2: she’s number 2 cuz I we became close later later in school not cuz shez any less of a bff than bff1. sha therz no defined story of how we started rollin. I sha kno we used to hate each other like maddd till like the end of ss2. people misunderstood her and she had a lot of hatters. Bff1 was a major 1! She always put up a bithcy front to shield her naivety and shyness. Everybody thot she was just some nasty-for-no-reason, spoilt, bossy show-off but in reality she was just a girl seeking for attention. She’s the baby of her house so no one really pays her attention at home and she wanted some at school.<br />I know for sure that she’ll always have my back sha. No matter how many new friends she makes. Shez in a different uni now too. Hers is even in another region of the country. We talk daily sha. She lets me know the p bout anythn goin down in her zones and I don’t let her slack either. <br />We’ve been thru crazy times mehn! I remember how we used to talk for hours and hours with that starcomms free weekend calls thing. We would just be saying rubbish!! Even my momz was always disgusted at how I had the phone stuck to my ear for that long.<br />The thing about having 2 besties is that there r something I tell bff1 that I don’t tel bff2 ad vice-versa. Like things I know bff2 would understand better, I don’t bother telling bff1. I really don’t know what I would do if bff2 wasn’t in my life.<br /><br /><br />Recently two more people have been added to my list. As some guy I met last week put it, ‘besties by default’. Like cuz bff1 and bff2 arent available at the moment, these 2 girls are here for me:<br /><br />Roommate 1: funny enuf, she wuz my best friend another lifetime ago. Like in jss2/jss3 before we had this huge fight! After then we never really sed more than hello to each other till now. Now we go everywhere together. It’s like you cant see me somewhere and not see her (except the few classes we don’t have in common). She’s wiv me practically all day so we talk bout boys, school,family and steez lyk we’ve known each other for ages.<br /><br />Roommate 2: always knew her back then as roommate 1’s friend buh we reli weren’t friends or anyfin. Now we’re like sooo into the same things. Like she has time for the iranu I have time for. Like wen roommate 1 is actin all mature, we don’t evn mind, we just carry on with our foolishness. This babe cracks me up dieee!! I swear, you cant stay with ths girl 4 five mins and not laugh.<br /><br />Oh well!! Guess that’s all of em!!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-64410411121801062402010-03-23T00:50:00.000-07:002010-03-23T00:51:14.118-07:00In cupid's mind...In cupid’s mind now, he’s got me on some kinda love lockdown!<br />So on valentines day, roomie1’s friend is in the area and comes to say hello. Lets call him HB. The week before that, he told roomie1 that in the picture she put of us on Facebook, I looked really nice, that who was i. so after he and roomie1 talk for awhile, he tells her to call me. so I come outside to meet him. He introduces himself and acts all I’m-so-awestruck-by-you-but-I’m –trying-to-code-it. We talked for a bit and founnd out we have a few common friends and everything. We both even went to the same SAT tutorial school but at different times. He was sha real cool and kinda cute. His smile was just his best feature. He was soo cute!!<br />A friend of ours was gonna take me and roomie1 out that evening so we had told HB that we had to go get ready and all. As we were heading back, we saw one of our other guy friends that we like teasing. We decided to make him jealous so we told HB to drop us off at some other hostel just so that our friend could see us in his ride and probably be jealous(we’re just jobless!). so on the way, there was traffic(imagine! Inside school again). HB and I sha got to talk more. I guess that was when I fell in ‘like’ with him. He was giving me all this I’m-feeling-you looks through the rear-view mirror. In my mind, he was feeling me.<br />So we started texting each other the next day. We mostly talked bout random things but I was always so excited whenever a new text came. The foolish boy took like forever to reply txts so I was practically like a child anxiously chilling to open a Christmas present!<br />Sha sha sha he asked me for the day I was free then came to see me. funny enuf, I dint even over baff up or anything, I just wore a Polo top and jeans(that looked kinda funny). Not to mention that I was on the period so my confidence was level was pretty low. <br />We talked for a few mins then he started driving around. I was even surprised he knew lag that well. He even tried to teach me how to drive but I chickened out. I sha enjoyed his company and it looked like he enjoyed mine.<br />He came to see me a few more times. We mostly just drove around lag talking and laughin and steez. He sha showed a lot signs that he was feeling me so I allowed myself to really really like him.<br />Then one weekend like this, I didn’t hear from him atall. It was rather strange and all so I chilled till Tuesday then texted him. He sha replied dah I forgot him shey and things like that. We were sha chattin till he sent one unexplainable msg. sumn bout backing off. Told him to explain, he sed not 2 worry. Next thing he sent sumn like ‘I’ve tried...meet me halfway’. I was like wtf and askd he 2 explain again buh dis tym he dint evn reply!<br />I was sooo weak! <br />Can u imagine he didn’t say anything again till like a week after. He called and stl sed I shldnt worry bout the txts then ASKED FOR MY SISTER’S FRIEND’S NUMBER!!! I was just irritated! To think that he could act so casually bout liking my sister’s friend was just hurtful. Like there was no chemistry between us or anything. I sha told him that I would ask for her permission first after I teased him bout chasing older girls. He insisted she wasn’t older than him. Warreva. I askd d babe if I could give him, she sed yes. I texted him the number and he dint evn hav the courtesy to reply ‘thanx!’ To top it up, he’ll now be putting up some kain love love Facebook statuses, chattin with lots of girls on his wall,commentin on almost every pic any of his femal friends’ upload, all that kain rubbish sha. Roomie1 insists that he’s just playin wiv my emotions that he still reli likes me.<br /><br />I’m still trying to understand what his deal is…I don’t think he was serious about liking my sister’s friend…what is so confusing is the way he just stopped calling, texting and is acting all oblivious of what we shared in those 2 weeks. Even if it really wasn’t anything, it was the beginning of a special friendship! I also know for a fact that he was into me! Or was it just in my head?? Nahhh… The thing is that I know that HB is a really nice guy. He may be immature but I know he’s not like them heartless player types. What could his <br />reason be for whatever he’s doing??? Is it possible that he’s just not into me anymore?? Could i have said something to chase him away?? Or maybe it was something he heard?<br /><br />What do you guys think???!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-4780893064082902042010-03-23T00:49:00.000-07:002010-03-23T00:50:24.763-07:00February parolesOmg!!! Its been sooo long!!! Don’t think I’ve ever been away for this long! I hope I was missed sha…lol (dreams!!). the sad thing is I cant guarantee that I’m fully back. I just had to hurriedly pop in and account for the last month and half. I have sooo many things to say!<br /><br /><br /> So I moved into school on the 1st of February with no idea of what to expect. After staying almost six weeks, I sure do have a lot of stories. Dang! That school is a community of its own! Its filled with various kinds of individuals from every kinda background you can think of. Being my first full-time boarding school experience, I was rather shocked at how different people could be. Would you believe that for real for real there are still aristo girls? Asin student aristo girls?! Asin plenty of them!!! Sometimes my naivety baffles me but I really did not expect the population of such girls to be this much.<br />Even when I was trying to whine my popcy for a blackberry and brazillian hair and he told me that most of the girls I see with these things at school are probably doing some form of runz , I thought he wuz breezing! Little did I know!<br /><br />Its not like there aren’t correct babes oh…there are…plenty sef…all these pampered daddy’s girls…but because there are also so many runz girls, it’s reali hard to tell the difference! One evening, my dad dropped me and my friends off at the hostel gate and if u see how people were staring at us ehn! Mehn if eyes were spears, only God knows what would have happened! They obviously thot he was our sugar-daddy or something!<br /><br />Moving on jare…have I mentioned that there are fresh boys???!!! In excess!!! As in, fresh from head to toe! Fresh asin: fresh attitude, fresh face, fresh, bod, fresh clothes, fresh ride, fresh gpa! Dang! It’s a wonder how I’m able to concentrate in class! Actually it’s not that hard cuz freshmen guys aren’t really all that fresh(especially in my faculty). Thankfully I don’t have to bear their unfreshness all week. I take 3 outta 6 classes at some faculty called fss. Mayneee….come and see freshhh boys!!! Out of the 3 classes I have there, I only concentrate for one and a half! I have a permanent window seat so I can see all freshness from far and near!<br /><br />The parties!!!: yes ohh….i have started rocking!! Went 4 three outta the countless parties in February. Lag people love to party sha! The 1st one I went for was at Tribeca. It’s like one of the hottest spots at the moment. I went with my friend and 2 of her friends. It was her guy-friend who happens to be the treasurer of one of the organisin clubs that took us. Everything was soo fresh. We didn’t have to hustle ride to get there like some other babes or chill outside for hours. We got into VIP in no time and everything. The only effed up thing was the air-conditioning. I totally cant stand heat so I didn’t party much. I danced a little then chilled mostly. I don’t drink, so on a scale of 1-10, I would rate the fun level at abou 5.5. it didn’t end bad though. I ran into hottie!! Remember him?? Yup, I ran into him and we talked for looong! He even had his hand on my waist and everything. I almost exploded with happiness. He dint ask for my number then tho.(he has it now sha)<br />Nothing else really happened at party 1 so moving on!<br />Next was one valentine concert thingy like this. It was at fantasy land. My sister and her friend got tickets but one of them wasn’t feeling it so she let me have hers. So it was me, my sister and her friend. I saw Banky W, Wizkid, Eldee and D’prince livee!!! I almost died of excitement I swear. Didn’t catch trips there sha. Even me I know I wasn’t lookin myself. It was a rush-rush thing so I don’t blame myself much. There weren’t even all that many fresh people there sef. Moving on!<br />Party 2: this was definitely the P! d’prince and wizkid were even there! This one was at Rehab. I went wiv my roomies this time. It was such a blast. This time I partied die!!! I danced with some rather hot fellows, If I do say so myself. I ran into hottie again and this time we actually danced. I know I was lookin the shit that day mehn. Ah ahn! don’t try me mehn. I would rate the fun level at 8.75!<br />Party 3: this one was a house-party at lekki. Twasnt reli a home tho. twas more of a house being used as a guest house. See fresh boys!! Ths one wasn’t a lag thingy, it was covenant dudes that organised it. So ther wer babcock, covenant and lag ppl ther. The atmosphere was skenzayy. It wasn’t reli bout hookin up. It was more like just jamming to your favourite songs with people. It was sha fresh. I looked rather skenzayy again. See how guys were practically fallin over themselves! In my mind ooo! The fun level here was about 7.<br />The annoyin part was wen I got 2 skul my sister now called me and starts yellin that she heard I what I did oh. That my gist is everywhere. Funny thing is, I didn’t evn do anything. Just chilled wiv my babcock peeps and danced with friends of friends. Up till now, she still wont tel me what she heard. And I’ve asked all my guy friends if they heard anything and they didn’t.<br /><br />Oh well…that’s basically all the paroles I’ve had…<br />I hope people don’t start thinking im one of those girls who just live to party and all. I know I only went for 3 but the 3 I went for were the maddest ones so I saw all the correct people at all 3! I know I haven’t changed like tha sha. Obviously I’ve matured a bit more in this one month but I don’t think I’ll do anything that I wouldn’t have done months ago in the near future. I really hope people can see that I’m the very same me!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-76357047193267634632010-01-21T12:18:00.000-08:002010-01-21T12:27:54.870-08:00In a parallel universe...The other day I was watching the suite life of Zack and Cody.(I’m not too old to watch The Disney Channel, am i?) Erwin, that plumber guy, invented some phone booth thingy that could transport people to a parallel universe. In that parallel universe, really crazy weird stuff happens. Like Paris Hilton was the President, Zack and Cody’s mum let them do all sorts of irresponsible things, Mr. Mosby encouraged them to play in the hotel lobby and other crazy stuff sha. It was so hilarious that I decided to create my old parallel universe!<br /><br />Here goes:::<br /><br />I wake up at 11 am. The weather is perfect. As in there’s sun but it’s cold. It’s also kinda dry but not dusty. I check my new Blackberry Bold. I have messages from hottie. He tells me how much he misses my voice even though we just spoke before I went to bed. My Latina maid knocks and enters my room with a tray of Mexican breakfast and the day’s newspaper. I thank her and she curtsies as she leaves. The major stories are about the new president, Don jazzy and how he resembles former president Yar Adua with his taciturn nature. He also recently declared the whole month of May as Music Month for the Youth. During the course of the month, concerts would be held everyday and school would be cancelled. There was also the headline about Beyonce, Jay-z and their sextuplet’s new reality TV show. Shaking my head, I turned towards my phone as I heard my message ring tone. It was just Chris Brown wishing me a Good Morning. Rolling my eyes, I texted ‘Good morning yourself’ back to him. He was always all up in my face! Calling me, texting me, tweeting at me, flying in to see me. at least he was better than Trey Songz. That one was just a nasty freak. We had fun for a really short while before he started bombarding me with sex talk.<br /><br />I hurriedly take a shower then head for my mall closet . What am I in the mood for today?, I thought. Perhaps a cute dress from my mini Lipsy store or a pretty cardi from my mini Zara store, I wondered. I’ll probably get some faux croc skin pumps to match my newest birkin bag, I was thinking just as hottie’s picture flashed against my phone screen. We talk for almost an hour while I try on tons of dresses and shoes. <br /> <br />PS: i was really bored wen i started typing this post so i probably just typed rubbish...<br /><br />nd yh, all my followers have disappeared on twitter!! i'm serz! all at once!! **Now wailing and bashing my head against the wall!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-15226019462022543982010-01-20T14:44:00.000-08:002010-01-20T14:54:05.013-08:00Rantings on a dusty, dry wednesday night...So I heard that I am unfriendly. I know I’m not the world’s friendliest person but I have never really thought of myself as unfriendly. In fact, I think people don’t even really know how to use the word friendly. <br /><br />Friendly: Welcoming, Sociable, Pleasant, Affable.<br /><br />If you’ve not approached me yet, how would you know that I’m not welcoming? If I’ve not refused your invite to a hang out, how can you say I’m not sociable? If I haven’t displayed any form of unpleasntness, how then am I unfriendly?<br /><br />Just cuz I seriously hate famz (fam spiro, fam fam, over-familiarity) and i’m not an advocate for it doesn’t mean I’m not interested in meeting new friends. People just don’t get me mehn. <br /><br />So the stupid boy just came and sat beside me then goes “I’ve been watching you for quite sometime now and I’ve noticed that you don’t really talk to people in this department” first I give him the blankest stare ever then I take my earphones outta my ears. Then he goes “ Most people’ll think you’re saucy and snobbish oh...especially cuz of the high sch you went(he’d alredi asked me earlier). Most girls that go there are usually really snobbish”<br />This time I just shrug. Then he goes(with a look of disgust) “DO YOU FIND THE PEOPLE AROUND HERE BENEATH YOUR STANDARDS? DO YU THINK THEY’RE INFERIOR???”<br />I was just too stunned for words! Why was he on my case? Why on earth was a randomer unnecessarily raising his voice at me? Then I as calmly as possible said, ‘I dont know them, why would I judge them?” <br /><br />People never cease to amaze me sha. That’s how one of my sister’s guy friends I recently met called me up just now. He even called before I just sorta missed the call. Sha he now said “ Jus wanted to check on you sha. You know, make sure you’re good and all”. He said he’s got my number cuz my sister’s always using his phone to call me. it’s no biggie sha..for now..i really hope he doesn’t try to start liking me or something. Cuz that thing really irks me! like 95% of my guy friends hit on me from time to time! Is it that they cant just see me as a friend or I’m jus real skenzayy like that?? Serzly why?? Why cant I be real close to a guy as a friend without him tryna ask me out or liking me??<br /><br /><br />Today my sister’s crush was totally all over that my friend that’s got this really good guy that she’ll probably not say yes to but really likes!!! Asin all of a sudden, she’s the hottest babe around! I don’t even get how and when it happened! I’m happy for her and all. I mean, she’s totally loving the attention but it’s still kinda weird sha. That all the hot guys’ll suddenly just start liking her….i’m probly jus being a bad-bele tho…God forgive me…<br /><br />Saw hottie on Friday…he waved at me I waved back buh I probly had a not-so-appealing look on my face cuz I was waiting in line for final registration wen I saw him. Oh well. He dint evn wave lyk he wuz super excited to see me or anythn..he jus acted lyk normal..mscheew…<br /><br />Love you guys!!!<br />Xa hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-13272755334252289812010-01-14T12:55:00.000-08:002010-01-14T12:56:04.756-08:00I wanna know what love is.....i want him to show me...lolMaybe it’s intuition…<br />There’re some things you just don’t question…<br />Like in your eyes I see my future in an instant…<br />I think I found my best friend…<br />I know this may be a little more than crazy but…<br /><br />I knew I loved you before I met you…<br />I think I dreamed you into life!<br /><br />I knew I loved you before I met you…<br />I’ve been waiting all my life!! <br /><br />And that’s just the first verse of one of my favourite love songs. Ever since my quest for love began, I’ve been listening to really lovey-dovey songs and I don’t feel like puking!<br />I don’t even gag when I see massive PDA again. I just pass them and smile. Ok see how I’m talking like it’s not just today that all this transformation happened. It’s definitely because of ‘the crush’. <br />I think I should call him hottie. Then I’ll call that guy that is both our friends, FB. So I’ve not seen hottie since Tuesday. I’m not so sad sha. Obviously I was disappointed at the end of ydae and today but come to think about it, I’m kinda grateful I didn’t see him cuz I wanna look my best when next I see him. The crazy sun hasn’t really helped matters these past 2 days. I just hope it doesn’t take too long before we see so I don’t lose interest. Or I don’t hear something bout him that dissuades me.<br /><br />Ther’s this really cuute guy that likes my friend. And she likes him too. They hang out a lot and all. All his siblings and friends know her sef. He’s even a twin sef. Imgine two identical cuties! What a catch shey? But this my friend eh, she likes wahala. She too front!! The guy’ll probly kno she likes him buh she’ll b actin as if shez soo naïve to the whole relationship fng. It vexes me mehn. The guy is such a catch.Not as much as hottie tho ;) . It’s just really hard to not get jealous when she’ll probly throw away the really good thing they have going on just cuz shez not sure she wants a relationship ryt now.<br /><br />Funny enuf, this time last week wen my sister’s friend asked me if I would say yes if hotie asked me out I was like no. I was like I don’t want a boyfriend atm. I just want someone to hang with , chill with, you know just a boy that I like that likes me back. Then it just kinda hit me. If I can have what Lucas and Peyton/Nathan and Haley have in one tree hill, why shouldn’t I ? like really, what’s the biggie in just giving love a shot? Even if we don’t get married or anything, the experience would still be nice.<br /><br />Then my sister and I have been arguing about marriage. She believes the most suitable time to meet your future husband is when you’re still in uni. According to her, that way once you’re done with grad school and nysc you’ll be close to settling down.<br />Me I think it would be real cool to finish grad school, nysc, start work, travel to lots of places, meet different kinda men then finally settle with the one you love most. My sister says I’m just thinking like a child but I still believe that it would really uncool to enter adulthood responsible to a certain guy. That means no crazy mad fun or partying when we’re finally free from our parent’s reins??? I think not!! <br /><br />Nd can you imagine, wuz chattn wiv sum new dude ydae…Facebook chat oh…sumn I neva do…lyk Serzly iono wat inspired me…I sha tld him my sch wuz lag wen he askd nd can u bliv the ode exed?! Aseeen cuz I sed I wuz in lag! Mscheeww!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-60948187827468789672010-01-13T22:56:00.000-08:002010-01-13T23:14:10.093-08:00HE touched me!!!!!lol...but it's true sha...he,the hottie i wrote bout, touched me! like his fingers actually brushed against the skin of my chest intentionally!!!He was tryna brush a strand of hair away. i was in haeven!!!<br /><br />lol i havent had this kinda crush in a while mehn...i usually just move on after a few days but this one is different. NOw i'm thinkin maybe i should have coded the fact that i was crushing on him cuz now almost all the girls i hang with know. it paid off tho. cuz one time he was approaching and one of them saw him and quickly told me and then i was able to brace myself and all. i just hope none of them does something terrible like doing him to hurt me if i annoy them.<br /><br />the funny thing is i know deep down inside that even if he reciprocates my 'crushing', it cant really go farther cuz he's friends with that guy that is my friend now but just kinda stop asking me out. it just wouldnt be right.<br /><br />but come to thik of it, i may have been wrong bout all these ppl decievin themselves with 'love'. Lately,i've just been playin I wanna know what love is in my head. then out of sadness, i decided to watch gossip girl and one tree hill again from season 1. i was just melting!! then it hit me, I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IS!! i've been frontin for wayy too long. and even though i disagree with my sister that uni is the best place to find the boy u're goin to marry, i still think it'd be good if i gave myself a chance with love. *sigh!*<br /><br />Live,love, dance!!! abi how does that go again..a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-70326071527767845072010-01-10T23:25:00.000-08:002010-01-11T00:00:01.700-08:00Onto the next one!Its 8:35 in the morning and i'm up!! like i cant freakin believe it! i'm up for no reson!1 i dont have to go anywhere or do anything, i just felt like waking up!! i think i'm slowly turning into a morning person. The funny thing is, i'm not just up, i'm happy to be up! i'm not even grumpy or tryna go back to bed!!!<br /><br />i guess i'm still happy bout fridae...lemme gist y'all..<br /><br />So i leave my house in the dryest outfit i've ever combined in my entire life(in lag). Some cream tee and blue skinny jeans and ballet flats. I was so not in the mood to even find matching shoes i just slipped into black ones.Ewww. that's not the point sha.<br />SO i get to school extra early cuz the driver has to take my little sister to school before 8 and if i had chilled till he came bak i woulda been late. So i ended up in school at 7:10 for a class at 8(that started at 8:35 btw, hisss). so i decide to give my new classmates a chance. i tried my hardest not to criticise anyone's outfit in my head. i also didnt mentally summarise their lives in my head. i decided to have an open mind. <br />i was the third person in the class when i walked in! can u imagine ppl actually being almost an hour early for their first class!!! i sha walked in, said hello, no one answered me, i took a seat towards the back of the class and plugged in my earphones. i turned the volume up so high till i knew it was disturbin them! Nonsense! ordinary hey! they cldnt say.<br /><br />i'm just gonna fastforward to the fun pat of the day:<br />So that guy i said i kinda liked that i dint like anymore was also at school on friday. So we hung out and all. At first, he acted like he really didnt care like that anymore. So later, we were hanging out in some cofee shop and i'm checking out his laptop theni see he has my bff's picture on his laptop!! like wth?!! i was just too disgusted! the ode now started saying he thought it was some other girl that was his firend. that they have the same hairdo, that he got it from his friends photos on facebook. yeah. rite. whatever. Then from there we meet up with this his hot friend that i met sometime last year. Aseeen!! Hot is even an understatement. he's a 10!!! asin, haircut on point, clothes, shoes,arms, chest, lips, eyes(dreamy!!!),everyhting!! this is how the convo went:<br /><br />Hottie: Hey,what's your name again?(he said again, like he knew before! loool)<br />Me: Uh...**My name**<br />Hottie: Cool..**His name**<br />Hottie: SO you're like really close with **some random girl's name**<br />Me: blank stare..who?<br />Boy i dont like anymore: Dont you know**random girl's name** (tries to remind me who she is)<br />Me: oh! nooooo...at all oh...i dont even talk to her<br />Hottie: aRe you srious? ah ahn...but i always see you guys together like everywher..<br />Me: shakes head<br /><br />the point is he thot i was some other girl!!! we now had to explain to him how i'm not and all. hez now like me and the girl are so idebtical we should be twins!! COincidentally we now run into the girl he sed i look like and I FREAKING DONT!!<br />This is the most imortant part of the gist:<br />He now said, But the have similar eys...Really nice eyes...then smiles at me<br />**bliss** i almost died!!! his smile was wayyy up to his eyes and everything! <br />now we're kinda acquitances!!!<br /><br />peace and love guys!!!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-2215779192905796372010-01-07T13:03:00.000-08:002010-01-07T13:15:00.416-08:00....it is what it is....So there’s this boy I kinda liked. For only a little while though. So apparently he really likes me too. Or so he says. Sha when I first gave him my number he used to call me at least twice everyday. (Not that I’m a fan of boys calling me excessively or anything). And then I even used to see him practically everyday. Then as usual, I got bored of him. I wasn’t just excited to talk to him anymore. The ‘like’ had faded. So when he asked me out (rather too soon if I may add) I jus laid it down for him. Told him how I just like him like a friend now. He was sooo not cool with it. I mean obviously I didn’t expect him to be all smiles but I didn’t expect an ‘I think I’m going to kill myself’ or ‘I don’t think I can ever talk to you again’ attitude he put up. Being the indecisive being that I am (I probably got that from my mom), I sha said I would think about it more sha. So we still hung out a lot after that sha.<br /><br />Then he kinda just started acting somehow. Stopped calling like he used to. Then when he called he would say stuff like “So you can’t check on me shey?” That statement just infuriates me mehn! I just don’t get why people say it. Is it meant to make me other person feel guilty or what? Mscheeww. Then one day he was now like “ So is he just like any other guy to me? That do we have something special?” And I kinda didn’t take him serious and all. Then the next time he called he was like<br /><br /> “So is that how it is? No problem oh. Anyhow sha I don’t think I’m gonna stress myself anymore. I’ve tried naww” <br /><br />What I just want to know is does that mean he’s moved on? That he’s no longer interested? Cuz me I’m confused oh. <br />My best friend is like why do I care if I don’t like him? That got me thinking, what do I really want sef?<br />I know I don’t like him. I know I don’t want to go out with him. I know I’ll be kinda sad if he’s off my case. I know I kinda enjoyed the attention I got from him.I know i enjoy the attention i get from other boys too. I know i'd probably miss him if we dont hang out anymore. I know i'll probly find some other nice dude to hang with.I know i'll feel a sting of jealousy if i see him flirting with some other girl. I know i would want him to see me flirting with another guy. lol Oh well. It is what it is.a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-90957012364437475252010-01-06T14:40:00.000-08:002010-01-06T14:46:20.853-08:00I need A shrink!!!Laziness and procrastination have taken over life. I barely do anything anymore.<br />Last night I went to bed with a Snickers wrapper curled between my fingers. My mother would so flip out if she knew I’ve been having chocolate for dinner over the last few days. Though I really don’t see how I’ve lost any weight, my mother’s constantly screaming about how I’m merely skin and bones. Oh well. It’s really not my fault. Proper food like most things these days doesn’t just appeal to me.<br /><br />I wonder if I’m at that stage of teenage life that parents talk about…you know, when they say things like: “Oh teenagers, they’re at that stage …” whatever. I’m just sick and tired of not being into anything or anyone. Everything is just blah. I just can’t bring myself to care these days. I don’t even kno know who I am anymore. Seriously, if someone asked me what kinda girl I was, I would just answer them with a blank stare. I don’t even know if I’m loud, shy, talkative, quiet, crazy, shallow, kind, fun, confident or insecure. If a person could be all, I think I probably would be. <br /><br />I wonder why it irritates me when I see girls chatting with boys they barely know or celebs on Facebook or twitter. Every time I see something like that I’m always like “Mscheeww. They’ll be chasing boys up and down.” But really they aren’t chasing boys, they’re jus having normal convos. Maybe flirting a little, but really what’s the big deal?? Its not like I don’t talk to any boys on twitter or fb too. I don’t know why I wont just free these girls. It’s probably because I’m too timid to do it sha. Famz is something that I just cant stand. Even though everybody seems t be doing it now, I just cant! It’s probably why I don’t comment on stuff a lot or RT at people on twitter. **Sigh** I need to change mehn. I really don’t like myself right now. If I was a guy, I sooo wont like me. . Oh well. It is what it is.<br /><br />I don’t know why I have a problem saying hello to people. I guess it still has to do with this famz issue. I just keep thinking what if he/she just shrugs off my greeting like I didn’t matter. Or he’ll feel important. Or why can’t she say hello first. Whereas, some people have no problem at all in yelling people’s names just to wave at them when they turn around. I probably am just scared of rejection.<br /><br />That’s probably also why I don’t tag people in notes and pictures and stuff. I’m always like I don’t want him/her to feel like they’re sooo important. And I fear that none of the people I tag would even be interested in what I tag them in or what if they un-tag themselves. I know this may seem like I don’t know my so-called friends well. The thing is I don’t even know if I should call a lot of people my friends. I only have a handful of people I can really and truly call my friends. Another thing is that I think some people I regard as people I just talk to actually regard me as their friends. I don’t even know what friendship is about anymore.<br /><br />i serzly detest myself atm...one of my bestest guy frends just called me nw...havnt spoken to him in lyk a year?? tlk 2 him online nd stuff tho...he sha jus cald me nd i dint hav nefn 2 sae to him!! asin afta all the 'inbox me ur numba fast!' and the 'we're so gonna rock ths hols', he calls me and we hav nothing to say! i cld so break my fone ryt nw!!! argh!!!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-14414486345339168832010-01-02T12:35:00.000-08:002010-01-03T13:34:46.514-08:00Peace, love and male models!Wow! Twenty-ten is really here. Thanks to God mehn.<br />Nehoo I’m really excited bout tha nu yr cuz i gt 2 mk resolutions which i dnt fnk i eva hav done b4.<br /><br />sha b4 i carry on wiv my new year resolutions i jus havta tel u guys hw hot the concert i wnt 4 last monday was! omfg! i neva realised how hot male models wer. esp teenage ones! in the past i always looked at male models as too hot to be straight. buh these ones were on anotha level! the fact that they were about my age and if i had worn anotha dress lyk my sister tld me to, it wld hav bin a diff story!!!<br /><br />newaiz ive bin fnkn ov wat to write on some tees im gettin done...nw all i cn fnk ov writin is Peace, love and male models! my sister's lyk if i wear that for a class i'm jus on my own. warreva joh. mayb i'll write peace,love and chocolate instead.<br /><br />k bak to the new year resolutions;<br /><br />-Imma be more courageous.<br />-Imma get my famz on mehn! in case y'all havnt noticed, famz is becomin reli random these daes esp on twitter...the funny fng is it doesnt bite them in the ass lyk it shld...instead it gets celebs retweeting at them! mehn errbody is doin it so i cn lyk to mehn. altho considering the level of pride i hav twill probly be very hard..<br />-Imma be more friendly.<br />-Imma be real picky bout the ppl i tlk to. not lyk im gonna b a total snob or nefn. im jus nt gonna tlk 2 ppl cuz i dnt wanna hurt their feelings.<br />-Imma delete all the random ppl on my facebook.<br />-Imma learn how to party without my frnds.<br />-Imma study real hard.<br />-Imma update my Ipod mehn. ah ahn. my songs are soo dryyy these daes. was tryna create a 'songs that'll save ur life playlist' and i realised i dnt hav any!<br />-Imma try to tolerate my mother's rantings. doesnt mean i'll kiss her ass or agree with err wrong thn she saes(like my sista..hiss)<br />-Imma try and talk to my father more<br />-Imaa check on ppl more<br />-Imma try to stop usin txt language except wen im txtn( thats gonna b real hard!)<br />-Imma be more confident and not care wat ppl sae.hmmmn.<br />So help me God!<br /><br />i probly hav alot mor buh i cant rememba them all nw. that stuff alwaez happens ro me. i blog in my head buh cant rememba wen im actually bloggin!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-21434354293618972422009-12-25T23:44:00.000-08:002009-12-25T23:45:45.338-08:00THE EXPERIENCE!!!The 4th of December 2009 is most def one of the days I will never forget in my life! Serzly, except I bash my head against some wall and get amnesia, 04/12/09 will be in my heart forever! So I’m gonna break down the day into diff parts:<br /><br />The morning:<br />So I woke up that morning to hear my mom and my sister talking bout me (like they always do!) my mom was like, “She is just sooo lazy!” Then my sister goes, “Sheyy. And I told her last night oh buh she dint listen as usual”. “Ah ahn! What’s her problem sef? How could she leave my kitchen like that?” mom asks. Sister shrugs. Then mom says “I know what I’ll do. Imma teach her a good lesson! (I roll my eyes in my mind) She’s not going anywhere today! (Ehn?! Was she joking or sumn?)”.<br />Obviously I was kinda crushed when I heard my mom say I wasn’t going for the concert anymore cuz I dint administer my chores ‘perfectly’(Abeg don’t blame me, I was tired and sleepy!). I wasn’t totally sad though cuz I heart being alone at home. Plus I was fnkn I cld call up a frnd nd we cld quickly see a movie b4 my mom got bak.<br /><br />So as I was planning my dae in my head, my sister’s frnd calls ha nd tells ha that if she doesn’t leave soon she’d probly not gt any good seats. Nxt fng, my sister calls my mom nd tells her tha she has to start hittin the road oh…mom is lyk kay, no wahala. Thn my sister’s lyk ‘my name’ nko? That wld she go by herself? Momceez nw lyk okay, I cn go wiv ha. <br /><br />So we sharply gt showered and dressed thn hit the road.<br /><br /><br />The Journey:<br />This part of the story is called ‘penny wise, pound foolish!’ it seems rather funny thinking bout it in retrospect but as at that time, it wasn’t funny at all mayne.<br />So my sister(shez the 1 callin all the shots here) says we shld wlk down the road to find a cab. According to her, those air conditioned cabs wld waste our time. So we gt to the taxi place thn my sisterz lyk we shld tk the cab to wher the BRT buses take off. You know how therz ths commercial on tv bout how skenzy the BRT buses r? that Kate-henshaw tlks bout hw she’d rather park her car at home nd move around wiv the BRT. So as stupid daft mumu gehs, we( mostly my sister) thnk that cuz the buses r big nd red theyd b lyk those jand buses. (Yeah ryt!)<br /><br />So the cab takes us to ths place in Jibowu wher the buses tk off. We give the guy N500 bucks thn head across the street to get the bus tickets. The ticket guys tell us that the bus wld tk us to the other side of the road wher we wld tk the bus to TBS, which is wher the concert was. Might I point out that this was the first time we were goin on such an adventure i.e taking buses to places we’re nt ev sure of. On normal daes, evn takin cabs was stress not to nw tlk of buses.<br />Sha we entered the bus with our tickets. First impression: Hot! Asin I was dripping pools of sweat! Second impression: Confined! I never knew I was claustrophobic till then. Ther wer ppl standing in the aisle so I was pretty cramped. Third impression: too high! I guess I also never knew that I was scared of heights lyk that. I mean, on a normal dae, im not, buh the way errthn looked from up made me shiver a lil. <br />The most annoying fng bout the bus tho, was the constant stopping. Lyk they stopped at evry freaking brt stop on the way! It was sooo frustrating! In the process ov errthn, we wer in the bus all tha way to mile12! Yup, mile 12! Mile 12 tha they tlk bout in all these razz songs nd movies, mile 12 ive never bin 2 b4, mile 12 tha is in no way related to the TBS we wer goin!<br />Sha, thankfully, some guy explained to us wat was hapnin (we had to gt to the last stop in that zone b4 we tk another bus to gt to the otha side that those guys at the ticket place at the beginning tld us bout). So we gt out nd gt nu tickets thn joined ths long ass queue (it did move kinda fast sha). It was lyk a movie mehn! We dint know nefn or newher! Jeez, I cn imagine hw we lukd!<br />Sha we finally gt on the bus that tk us to that other side(afta a whole lotta stops). So when we gt to the other side that we’ve bin talkn bout eva since, we realise that ther was a foot bridge that coulda taken us frm the side the cab dropped us (over an hour ago) to the ‘other side’. We were so bummed. To think that we jus wasted about ninety minutes and ticket money for no reason was vexin!<br />Sha we gt outta d bus nd took another one str8 to TBS(also wiv alotta stops!)<br /><br /><br />The waiting:<br />Dang! The sun was jus raging ydae! Aseen! It was lyk God decided to punish the earth buh wiv sun instead ov rain lyk durin the tym ov Noah. Even with shades on, it was hard to open your eyes without squinting! It was like the only time in my life where holding an umbrella over your head cuz ov the sun in Lagos wasn’t totally razz! Lyk Serzly! I mean, normally the sun isn’t that bad plus we’re all black so its not like we’re preventing skin cancer or sumn. Sha lots of ppl had umbrellas buh we dint sha. My sister’s frnd had gotten ther earlier so she saved us seats. They wer not lyk mad crazy sexy seats buh they were much more better than any we coulda gotten at the tym we came! So for lyk the first hour, we all just talked bout random ish thn we jus kinda sat in silence. There wasn’t reli nefn else to do. Waiting is lyk at the top of my pet peeve list so I seriously almost lost it! Thankfully, God was on my side as always and I managed to keep my cool. After about three and half hours or so, it was lyk 6:30 so they started the final testing of the mic/rehearsal. Ppl were so excited! Err1 cldnt wait for the clock to strike 7!<br />Unfortunately, the large projector screen that had been showing since afternoon decided to tk a break so we had to chill for about another hour for them to get it fixed.<br /><br />The show itself!!:<br />So after they fixed the screen it was some minutes to 8 and the show officially started! the crwd was wilddd!!! Some daft ppl were selling whistles nd those horn fngs that r usually sold at football matches so a lot ov ppl bought them and dint hesitate to use them! I was so irritated! They just kept whistling and whistling and blowing and blowing loudly! Sha some comedian guys kicked off the show. They wer real funny mehn! Aseen I was nt expectin to laugh that hard! I remember ths particular line: “Persn wey say my water no go boil, im own no go hot! Say amen oh!” and “Wat you ‘sow’ is what you wil wear!”. It’ll probly not sound as funny as it did wen he was saen it buh nehow joh!<br />After the opening comedy, some guy that I dint catch his name came nd sang those Niger Delta kinda songs that u dance wiv handkerchiefs. The crowd was just gerrin crazier by the min! we dint do the whole handkerchief sha buh we sang along loudly wiv the rest ov the crowd nd boogied lyk we hadn’t danced in years! Twas all for JC baby! Naij gospel songs jus have a way ov makin you lose urself in dance. Next was Sammy Okposo. He sang a lot ov popular praise songs nd the crowd ammed wv him mayne! I was so speechless at the way the entire TBS was figuratively on fire! Aseen ppl were standing on their chairs, clapping, whistling, tooting horns, banging tambourines and singing at the to of their lungs for Jesus! It was a totally great feeling I tell ya. Then the fact that we were in the open, looking up into the skies was sooo niiicee! I know ths is probly cheesy buh I felt lyk a greater connection wiv God as we looked up into the skies singing and dancing. Not that on normal daes I don’t connect wiv God during praise and worship songs buh looking into the sky made it so iono…movie-like?? Lol. It felt really good tho.<br /><br />Next was Lara George. She had a good performance buh i know it wld have been so much bera if she sang ‘Ko le baje’. Lyk reli, y don’t artistes kno the ryt songs to perform at concerts. I’ve seen it happen so many times. Instead ov em to perform only the songs that’ll totally promote their album nd get ppl to madly jam, they’ll jus sing mayb 1 or 2 hits thn 1 random song tha nobody evn knows! Lemme not b a bad-belle sha, her performance was crazzzzayy!<br /><br />After the whole Naija back-to-back fng, some Jamaican lady was up next. I danced tire mehn! Ah! Evn the songs I dint kno the wordings to, I sang along from the lyrics on the screen. I’m not reli sure who exactly was next buh lemme jus tel u the performances I madly enjoyed: Don moen, Rooftop mc’s( Sady the crowd din rei seem to get them lyk I did),Ron kenoly, Kirk Franklin(Obviously!!!). I dozed off a lot so all the names are kinda lyk a blur ryt nw.<br /><br />Yh thn ther was the tym I was sooo pissed I cried in silence. My mom was s’posed to cum get us lyk 11, 12 thn all ov a sudden my momz txts my sista nd saes we cn cum in tha morning. I was so effin vexed at the time! I kno I woulda missed the performances that turned out to b my favourites buh all I knew was that wasn’t how we planned t nd I was tired nd sweaty nd wantd a bath!<br />That was the tym I reli dozed mehn. I guess I was jus too vexed to do nefn else. <br /><br /><br />I cooled down afta the Rooftop Mc’s tho. I nw wnt 2 go gt water nd food 4 me,my sister,ha frnd nd ha frnd’s frnd. Wen I was goin I dint boot that I wnt b able to carry errthn being tha I only hav 2 hands nd all. Sha it was rei very hard to squeeze thru the multitude ov ppl to gt the stuff. I was almost in tears mehn. Almost! Sha I got wat I cld carry thn headed bak jus 4 1 ov the usher guys to tell me I cnt go bak to my seat. I fnk he thot I was jus comin for tha 1st tym nd all. Asin I almost lost it mehn. To think that I was stranded wiv no fone no money no bag wiv a multitude ov ppl wen I had a seat that I’d been sittin on for over twelve hours! It was very demoralizing! Thankfully, after few minutes ov poutig cutely and my (sexy) pleas, the guy finally let me pass. That wasn’t the end oh! Afta all the drama, I cldnt nw find where we were sittin! Aseen I wantd to jus die! Ppl wer nw starin nd starin at the aimless girl wiv her arms overflowin wiv food nd drinks that can find ha seat. Wen I finally found it, I practically threw their stuff at them nd sank deep into my chair for anotha long sulk/doze!<br /><br /><br />They wer jus all types ov crazy ppl ther mehn. I rememba 1 guy tha kept screamin “Yes!” afta err word that came out ov neo v the artistes mouths! He was Serzly seeking 4 attention! Thn ther was some otha singy singy due. Tha 1 cld sing diee! Wen Don moen was bout to start he nw started yelling “Wake up! Wake up ppl! Its Don moen1 lyk really, The Don Moen! My mentor!”. I cldnt help buh smile mehn. The Adefarasin guy(the orgainser) wasevn lyk we wer about half a million ppl presnt! No wonder how crazy it was! I stl feel reli proud to b 1 ov d thousands that stayed out all nyt singin and dancing 4 Jesus! Cuz reli I cn imagine wat ppl that don’t bliv in OGd musta bin sayin. They wld probly shake their heads nd call us crazy! Lol. Buh iguess we were, crazy 4 Jesus!<br /><br />Thn durin Kirk Franklin’s performance, he was lyk ppl shld cum up nd show their Nigerian dancing skills. 1 guy nw went and totally killed it! Ah ahn! Wat dd he not do! Was it alanta? Yahoozey? Errthn! Kirk Franklin was soo impressed! Thn 1 ode guy nw came up nxt nd started break dancing. Kirk sooo bounced his ass outta ther mehn. He had boldly stated ‘Nigerian dancing Skills!’ that 1 nw wantd 2 show an American tha we cn break dance in africa. Ode. Hu snt him. Lmao! <br /><br />Wen they roundin off the show, sum ppl actuali started chanting ‘Mre! More! More!<br /><br />The journey bak:<br />You wont bliv we came home by ourselves too! Aseen, wen twas almost daybreak was wen it clicked that my sister meant we were gonna find our way bak home! I was too tired to evn b pissed! I jus kept replayin the previous day’s BRT experience nd I was jus oo sad! Fortunately she ws lk atll w’re not tan BRT again tha we wld tk a cab.<br />So we walkd down to one place lyk ths thn got a cab. Wen I sa we I mean al o us! Seen, my sister nd I plus ha frnd, ha frnds’ sister nd ha frnd’s frnd. We sha squeezed into the same cab tho we wernt all goin to the same place. I guess we all jus dint want to wait 4 the nxt cab. Err1 jus wantd to go! The cab guy nw stated vexin 4 us wen we were almost home that we din tel him we wer makin so many stops oh. My sister’s frnd frnd finished d guy ,ehn. Aseen1 I’m not one to insult elders nd all buh d guy sef was a case! He too talk mehn! D bbe gave it bak to him hot hot! Twas funny sha. Hope he doesn’t surse ha or us or sumn.<br /> We sha got home in 1 piece!!!! Thank Jesus!<br /><br /><br />DANG!!!! WHAT AN EXPERIENCE SHEY?????a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-24460726784440330252009-12-25T23:41:00.001-08:002009-12-25T23:43:58.337-08:00my futile attempt to write...i find it rather amusing tho...I knew I loved you before I met you <br />It’s like I dreamed you into life…..<br /><br />When you looked me in the eye<br />And told me you loved me<br />I thought that I was safe with you….<br /><br />You lifted my feet of the ground<br />Spun me around…<br /><br />Felt like I was floating in air<br />Lost in your eyes…<br /><br />You opened my eyes <br />Made me believe…<br /><br />I looked into your eyes<br />And I thought I knew you….<br /><br />Now I’m not so sure….<br /><br />I remember when you said forever & always…<br />Didn’t mean it, did you? <br /><br />I was not the type to get my heart broken….<br /><br />Now it’s all so different<br />Feels like I was just a victim….<br /><br />We were living a lie….<br />Now I’m in this condition<br /><br />Got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart….a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-70447101968368330482009-12-25T23:39:00.000-08:002009-12-25T23:40:25.273-08:00JEALOUS: feeling angry or unhappy because someone has something that you would like; feeling angry or unhappy because someone you like or love is showing interest in another person.<br /><br /><br />I wonder why ppl find it so hard to admit that they’re jealous. Lyk serzly, wat is the big deal?!! We can rarely control our feelings or emotions so y try to hide from urself?<br /><br />Me, I’ve come to terms with the reality that I am a jealous cow! I’m sooo jealous these days its disgusting! I’m jealous of my sisters, my bffs, the other girls guys I like talk to and the list is endless!<br /><br />My sisters:<br /><br />My older sister is lyk the perfectest child of my parents. I thot I was my dad’s honeypie nd all buh it turns out, hez moved on to my sister. On a normal day, I wldnt evn care bout hu the parents lyk more buh wen benefits nd priviledges start 2 come out of it, it affects me.<br />My mom is just on her own kentro serzly…she cn giv my sister money for straightening her bed! Wth?! Wuz d big deal in dah 1 nw? nd shez alwaez goin off bout how my sister wld b d purrfect wife nd mother nd all cuz shez so gud in the kitchen nd around the house. Puh-lease!! Gimme a break abeg! In d 21st century? Reli?<br />The annoyin fng is dah im nt as lazy nd useless as she fnks I am. Outside ov my house ppl kno me as the ‘neat’ girl. At least I fnk so…lol…buh on tha real, I cant stand dirt nd disorganised places. Buh at home, nobody sees me daht way…they all see me as the lazy fool!<br />And thn, my older sister is lyk sooo brave! Lyk she cn totally wear rubbish buh carry it lyk a million bucks! D annoyin fng is cuz ov ha confidence, ppl’ll nw actually dig d rubbish she wore!<br /><br />My younger sister doesn’t have the most perfect lyf buh I stl envy ha tho. she doesn’t hav to worry bout so many fngs! Ok scratch that…she does…shez kinda lyk at that age wen u worry bout errfng!(the pre-teen years)<br /><br /><br />My bffs:<br />Bff1 nd I wer lyk almost the same b4. asin we both wer quiet to nu ppl buh talkative nd all wiv ppl we wer cool wiv. Sadly tho, I fnk im the only 1 dah stl does that. She seems lyk such a diff person nw. espeshly nw dah sec. sch’s over….iz lyk nw we’re just frnds struggling to kip in touch…ok…iz nt dah bad yet..buh I reli fnk shez sooo outgoin in ha nu sch so she probly has enuf nu reli close frnds tha r lyk the nu ha. Therz nt reli a nu ha buh therz lyk an improved ha…dunno wat im saen sef…I sha knot ha she cnt b dullin lyk me. Nd tis unfair. I wonder y tis soo hard 4 me to mk nu frnds. I hav a few nw buh they’re lyk at arms length. I’ve only known them 4 a month plus I don’t live with them lyk bff1 does in ha sch. Ohh welll. Daz hw wen the hols come, she’ll probly wnt 2 hang out wiv ha nu frnds nd I’ll b lyk ‘the tatcher!’ <br /><br />Bff2 hasn’t reli changed much. I fnk shez stl lyk me…u kno, keeping these nu frnds at arms length..the funny fng is I myt evn b wrong bout bbb1 being so close to ha nu frnds<br /><br /><br />Ooooo! Im tired ov wat im saen! I feel daft writin all these cuz it doesn’t evn mk sense nemore! Derz no real reason 4 me 2 b jealous ov my bffs! Only a teeny tiny 1 which is the fact that they’ll probly hav a lot more nu frnds thn me! Nd thaz nt evn sooo bad1 I jus wasted my tym typin ths long post!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-6563663689517601402009-12-25T23:37:00.000-08:002009-12-25T23:38:32.038-08:00i know i lukd real niiiiiccee 2day...not that i dont always luk nice cuz I do…really I do…(conceited much?yes! lol)rockd pink...again... i wore pink ths entire week...hehe...<br /><br />k...so therz ths 2 dudes i want 2 start talkn 2...lyk iono y...i jus fnk they'd b real fun ppl...so errdae im chillin nd chllin 4 fate 2 jus bring dem my way buh no such luck! btw i dont fnk the're hot or nefn oh...i jus lyk them as dudes 2 hang wiv...so thaz hw ydae wen tha stupid dude took my seat, one ov em comes up nd tries ta tell tha dude 2 b a gentleman nd all buh d seat stealer doesnt budge. i sha walked out pissed. lera on, d one ov d 2 guys dah tried 2 save my seat 4 me nw saw me chillin at the bak ov the class nd is lyk oh so u're sittin here now? nd im lyk sadly yh. hez lyk eeyahh...nd den he jokes(i hope so) dah i shld hav threatened 2 bust the seat stealer's brains and i laugh thn he runs along,<br /><br />the main problem is this: R WE NOW FRIENDS? SHOULD I WAVE AT HIM WEN NXT I SEE HIM?<br /><br />i dunno y i hav ths stupid pride fng...i find it sooo hard 2 actually say hello 2 ppl..im always fnkn y cant he/she say sup 1st.<br /><br />sha sha sha...i dont hav a new crush...wich is unusual considerin i m in a new environment wiv alot ov males...i guess they just dont got my type...hiss<br /><br />i miss all the boys i dont talk 2 nemore...the 1s tha got bored ov me, the 1s tha gt girlfrnds,the 1z tha felt they'v nw become bigs boys...*sigh*<br /><br />btw. is it me or do ppl jus hate on otha ppl cuz they seem 2 hav errfng?<br />i mean isnt it just instinct 2 hate the babe tha remembad 2 bring ha umbrella while u're soaking wet unda the rain?<br />Or the babe who seems 2 b havin a blast partyin all ova the place while u're cozed up @ home studyyin? mscheeww<br /><br />i think i need 2 b a tad bit more friendly...neva hav so many ppl asked me if im always 'ths quiet'. nonsense. me? quiet ke? therz jus no one 2 tlk 2.i miss my frnds...i evn had a dream wher we wer all bak in high sch...up 2 our old tricks...*sigh*<br />yes i kno ths is a rather sad and long post....<br /><br />isnt it rather annoyin wen u catch a guy's eye errdae...lyk u kno hez totally feelin u nd all buh he doesnt step up??? it is!!! hisss. sometimes i dont blame some bbz 4 going all ths-is-the-21st century on guys... reli...<br /><br />i am grateful 2 God 4 life nd all buh fngs r jus reli pissin me off atm...i probly shld quit worrying too much and over-thinkin thngs...lyfs too short shey?<br />Peace and love!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-54104376281957043852009-12-25T23:25:00.001-08:002009-12-25T23:36:56.000-08:00im bak!!!hey guys!!! im bak!!!<br />aseen it feels lyk ive bin gone a whole yr buh iz reli jus a month!!<br />imma tell y'all wat hapnd in tha first place lera buh nw imm jus post all the things i wantd 2 post in tha last month!<br /><br />nd yh, Happy holidays!!!!!<br />Christmas was sooo nice, i hope y'all had fun tew...a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-39261299787999401992009-11-19T12:39:00.000-08:002009-11-19T12:41:42.776-08:00another rant.....I reli hate that all I have 2 tlk bout is school….<br /><br />Sha sha sha. The male species intrigue me! Aseen. They never cease to amaze me. After all their ‘forming badguy’ they’ll stl some around. Like 1 dude lyk ths in my class. We had been catching each other’s eye for weeks. Sometimes we would even stare at each other for like 5 (or even more) minutes without blinking. I kept thinking, 1 day ths guy’ll step up and say hello until one day last week when he huffily said to me, “Excuse me!” when I was kinda like in his way. Aseen. I almost died. Not cuz he was so hot or nefn oh. He just had ths freshness that appealed to my eyes. He had ths mean eyes that were jus too sexy! He sed it lyk he was irritated by me. Since then I conditioned my mind that he wasn’t starin at me cuz he liked me. And I never caught his stare after that too. <br />So yesterday as I was leaving the building, guess who practically chased me down the stairs? I’ll tell u! My sexy eyed fresh starer!(is that evn a word? Aseen someone who stares). He was nw tryna be all smooth nd all. Ode. Afta practically chasing me down the stairs. He was sha real cool. Nd I guess we’re friends… no… acquaintances now. Yay!<br /><br />Yh…nd I like someone!!! He’s not even all that cute. he is cute tho. Just not all that. I guess im gerrin more mature. Serzly. Ths time last year, looks were all that mattered when it came to boys. Ok not all buh looks wer a reli reli reli huge deal. I guess im nt all that shallow nemore.<br /><br />Which reminds me! Sum guys r jus on another cruise! Reli! They just don’t get it! The guy that I wrote bout that got me earphones? Rememba him? He’s a disgu! Ugh! Aseen I cant evn stand to be within 2 ft ov him. I dint kno hw to get him off me so I tried changing my attitude. I dint wnt 2 b mean cuz hes’ in my class nd’ll probly b 4 a while (if I dnt leav the effin skul!). so I started actin lyk sum spoiled shallow bitch. Sayin stuff like, “I’ll choose covenant ova lag cuz ther r fresher ppl ther”, “I turn off my fone cuz I don’t want random ppl callin me”….<br />Ok so I cant reli rememba wat I sed…I sha kno I sed stuff that shld reli irritate him buh dint! He dint luk thrilled either tho. he sha dint leave me alone thaz d main fng <br /><br />Started one tree hill season 7 ydae…they actually cut lucas nd peyton out of it! Im nt exactly sad sha..buh I cnt bliv they removed 2 major characters jus lyk that…they replaced em wiv hotter characters tho…nd therz more shirtlessness! Hehe<br /><br />Thankfully my mom has gotten off my case…<br /><br />I stl miss my old life tho.<br /><br />Chillin 4 dec…hope it doesn’t flop afta all my expectations…I kno God wnt do that 2 me sha.<br /><br />Cuz somtyms iz lyk wen I plan stuff in my head, lyk daydream bout hw I wnt some day 2 go, it doesn’t work out at all! Lyk the day totally sucks! As if God is tryna tell me to let him tk control…mayb I shld stop tryna imagine/plan/organise the future in my head…hmmn…oh well…<br /><br />Peace!<br />xa hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-68889146168673832792009-11-12T16:25:00.001-08:002009-11-12T17:24:15.195-08:00frustrationi know i sed it ydae buh im sayin it agin 2dae...my mother vexes the hell outta me! argh!! WTFH!! aseen, i am soo frustrated right now.<br /><br />the things that i hate.<br />1.i hate it when people ask questions they know they wouldnt let you answer. like somebody says, "Did you take the trash out?" and just before you evn come up with a smart excuse they quickly add, "I dont know wh u're so lazy! you didnt take the trash out!"<br />WTF? y ask if u alredi knew?<br />2.i hate it when people see you doing something and bring their own somethings to you to be done.(HUH?)<br />like you're folding clothes thn sum1 cums along and drops her clothes beside you and goes "Pleaseeeee...since you're folding anyway" or you're doing the dishes and you're almost done thn sum1 cums nd drops their plate in the sink. mscheeew.<br />3.i hate it when people repeat themselves for emphasis. like really, do i look deaf? or slow? mscheew...<br />4.i hate it when ppl apologise unnecessarily. like it just really ticks me off mehn. Lyk im talkin 2 sum dude nd he says sumn but i dont reply cuz my mind was probly sumwher else thn he goes "Oh, i'm sorry.i sed sumn u dont like?" hiss. or im hangin wiv a dude nd thn he goes "sorry btw, for not lookin so fresh 2day" serzly, wuz my bizness? hiss or i sae im sad or not feeling too good nd thn ppl sae "Oh,i'm sorry" hiss, was it them that made me sad, y r they sorry? eyah, wat hapnd or hang in ther shld b the perfect response.<br />5.i hate it wen ppl ask you a question nobody else knows and when you dont know it, they act as if u're soo useless. odes, y dint they know the ansa themselves.<br />6.i hate it wen a conversation is dry nd no one has nefn else 2 say thn guys say "so wasup now" like reli, dint u ask me that at the beginning ov the convo. in short i jus hate it wen sum1 asks the same question more thn once in the same convo.<br />7.i hate it when ppl think they're being all blunt nd all buh wah they're reli doing is being friggin mean! its like ppl dont know how 2 give constructive criticism again.<br />8.i hate it when i try sumn that worked out perfectly 4 otha ppl nd it now blows up in my face. ah! i suffered ths 1 well in sec.sch. dahs how one time we wer cuttin a class thn the vice-principal approaches thn err1 jus runs past her. wen twas my turn was wen she nw pulls me bak! lyk serzly wth?<br />9.i hate tacky make-up mehn. argh! ths thing irritate the life outta me mehn. left to me, make-upis not by force if u dont kno how to use it. serzly, wats d point of spending ur money nd time on foundation that is (so bloody obvious) not ur shade by far or linin gur lips with a balck pencil + clear lip gloss. reli?? ewwww!<br />10.i hate it when a guy thnks u like him cuz u're reli nyc 2 him nd all buh nt so nice to otha guys that he knos u kno. iz not like errbody is the same so must i b nyc 2 errbody? obviously ppl hav distinguishing attribute that mk me act nicer to them thn othas...reli...guys that thnk like that shld grow a fuckin pair mehn!<br />11.ihate it when i have a missed call from sum1 nd i call or txt bak nd the persn doesnt acknowledge either. reli? wats ur point of now calling me in the 1st place if u're nt reli interested in talkn 2 me? hiss<br />12.i hate it wen bbz dress up lyk they dont own effin mirrors. i dnt kno y it affects me mehn. i kno its not my bizness and all buh reli, bbz lyk that r jus representin the female folk wrong!<br />13.i hate it when guys thnk its badass 2 b openly rude 2 girls. thats hw 1 dae on fb, one guy wrote sumn daft lyk tha as his status, one bbe(s'posed 2 b his frnd oh)now LOLed, the guy nw commented "who's ths one? shut the fuck up bitch! dont b commentin on my status if u aint got nefn sensible 2 sae, idiot!" im serz! to a gurl! evn if they're tight lk that iz stl wrong mehn...it made it seem lyk she was sum tatcher or they wer not cul b4...hiss..guys...<br />14.i hate it when i hurry not to miss sumthn nd afta all my rush, i stl miss it. man, its vexin!<br />15.i hate it when i follow ppl on twitter nd they dont follow me bak. nt talkn bout celebrities here oh. real ppl that actually kno u nd tlk 2 u on a normal dae. r they tryna sae they're not interested in ur lyf? hiss<br />16.i hate it when my nail polish chips off nd i cant find the remover or the nail polish to retouch it. i'll now b lookin raggedy. doesnt happen often tho.<br />17.i hate it when ppl thnk its cul to act unserous bout academics. lyk reli, y take the thng tha'll mk u a badass rich bbe or guy in the future as a joke?<br />18.i hate it when u introduce ur frnd 2 anotha frnd thn they both become sooo close they 4get all bout u. hisss.<br />19.i hate it when ppl cut me off in tha middle of hot,spicy gist.<br />20.i hate it wen guys unnecessarily take my hand. abeg, i dont like it jare.<br />more to come...<br /><br />jus remembad 1 room raiders i watched wher the girl that dint get pickd sed the girl that got pickd nd the guy r boring sad geeks cuz they blog. that bloggin is for ppl that r so sad, they dont hav real ppl 2 tlk 2. now is that true? y the hell wild sum1 thnk that?a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-35102475823980526232009-11-11T12:40:00.000-08:002009-11-11T13:47:41.116-08:00story story oh...i guess its tyms lyk ths that i actually agree wiv my sista tha im a sad bbe mehn...afta ive done and said rubbish during tha day i'll nw cum home nd start blogging...<br /><br />sha ive done nonsense again oh! ths tym i cant evn blame ne1 buh myself. ok so how dd it it start. i cnt evn rememba. i sha kno i was bored outta my mind nd im scrollin down my mssgr list nd im like i cn lyk 2 holla at all ths ppl i havnt tlkd 2 in a while...i nw hollad at HIM. i coulda skipped him oh...dont kno d devil tha possesed me not to...kmt...i nw sha sed sup. at 1st i thot he wasnt evn gonna ansa. i wantd 2 die!!! not that i care cuz i lyk him or sumn oh...i jus care cuz i care bout errfbg! serzly...random stuff affect me alot iono y...<br />the most important fng wiv dis particular dude is that he has a big EGO...serzly...if he shld gt into a battle wiv /kanye over hu has the biggest ego, he'd sooo win...d only thng is he kinda has a reason 2 b so full ov himself- hez a fiiine boy mehn.fresh nd al...<br />sha...that doesnt change the fact that i shldnt hav hollad..espeshly wen i hrd 1 gist lyk that bak in sec.sch that he sed i snt him 2 frnd reqs b4 he nw decidd 2 ansa me! aseen how far! y do ppl lie lyk that?! it dint bother me so much thn cuz the source was totally unreliable...buh fnkn bout it nw, wat it he actually dd sae it?<br />foolish boy...d annoyin fng is we actually used 2 yan oh...lyk we cld gist thru out an entire wkend...all of a sudden, we just dint holla at each otha nemore<br />bak 2 wen i hollad jare...ehen so he did ansa me..nd we talkd 4 a while nd all b4 i exed saen i was goin 2 bed...nxt dae, he starts the convo nd im lyk ehnnnn so u knew i was on ur mssgr list eva since eh? i sha ansad him nd we're talkin nd all..thn he snds me a frnd req on fb nd im lyk wtf?!! dd he delete me or sumn? mayb he reli dd sae those fngs bk thn oh...buh as a daft mumu, i add him wivout askin ne questions...<br /><br />d main pint here is i dont like him buh my actions mk it seem lyk i do!!! aseen...i hate it wen ppl dont gt me mehn...i wuz probly too tired 2 start askn hw cum u're sndn me a req on fb nd alll...kmt..<br /><br />i kno i shldnt care buh i cnt help it!!!<br /><br />now 2 otha bizness...<br />my motha vexes me...aseen constantly....its so annoyin wen i see otha bbz gettin alon gqiv their moms. like 2day, we were in the car 2getha nd my sista nd i wer singin along 2 'Take ur shirt off' loudly thn she goes we shld be quiet joh, the drivers's not interested in hearing our voices. asin she sed it lyk we wer tryna entice the driver wiv our voices! eewwww! thn when she gets bak home wen she goes out, the way she knocks on the window irritates me! y on earth shld a persn knock on thw window ??!! my sista sed its ha signature knock so we'll kno its her cuz no one else knocks on the window(y shld they?!) thnshe keeps on talkin in incomplete sentences lyk i shld b able 2 read her mind or sumn..hiss<br /><br />nd yh...i got invited 2 a pool party...buh i cnt go...im nt evn al that sad cuz im shy lyk that...lol...buh on the real...i wld sooo not go 4 a pool party wher i kno lyk only 1 persn(the dudue that i nvited me). i wld b sooo self-conscious nd all...plus i havnt eva partied by myself b4...my myself i mean wivout my frnds or my sista...ive been feelin kinda bad dayin i cnt go...its the 1st fng hez invitin me 4 nd i cnt go...oh well...hope he doesnt fnk im such a juvie...<br /><br />thn therz ths dude in my class i fnk is reli feelin me nd al...hez jus ther...lyk reli...i cant say im terribly repulsed by him buh im nt feelin him either..hez lyk all those kinda guys that apologise quickly nd all...not my type...i lyk rude boys..lol..serzly tho...the bad boys are always catchin my eye...lolthn i thnk in his mind hez impressin me wiv his convo skills..lyk i dont fnk they're original...buh he dd gt me earphones 2day...that was sweet...he askd y i was down nd i sed twas cuz my ipod earphones broke thn he went nd got me earphones...the girls i tlk 2 wer nw lyk awww...how sweet nd all...warrevs...<br /><br />therz 1 curie pie ive bin noticin mehn...buh i hav a felin all hez got is his cuteness mehn...lyk im nt reli feelin his swag nd all...dnt gt me wrong hez nt razzzz or totally uncool, hez jus not a badass guy. all ths guys sef, dey too lyk games...they'll be givin u eye buh they'll nt step up...tis gerrin rather old mehn...<br /><br />oh yhh...boyfy nw came nd started interogatin me on mssgr that wah exactly was i talkn bout nd all...i shulda known he dint undastnd cuz the way he was callin me twice a day nd yelling baby!!! hunnay!! smh<br /><br />ohhhh...i jus breezed mehn...buh i cnt help it mehn...<br /><br /><br />ohhh...thn therz that cutie frm church...i fnk hez kinda shy...buh at least he stepped up so i guess not! tha dude is fresh steez mehn...ah<br /><br />neway...thaz all i hav 4 nw...<br />xxa hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-87684038388351800812009-11-03T15:06:00.001-08:002009-11-06T13:44:54.837-08:00so much to say!ok so i have alot 2 say ths tym! havnt got alot ov tym tho!<br />school is gerrrin bera...however the sun is stl a bother...ive started talkn more 2 ppl nd all...i wonder y i thot i was reli friendly b4...i guess im nt...<br />you wont bliv wat hapnd 2 me 2day?! one olodo boy stole my seat! the seat that i chose afta coming 2 nd half hrs early 4 the class!<br /><br />wil continue ASAP!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-40581922412335940702009-10-29T14:26:00.000-07:002009-10-29T14:49:10.307-07:00My future magazine article....when lurv takes over...nd it knocks u down...Hey people!!!<br /> I wrote this listening to<br />Keri Hilson’s knock you down right after when love takes over – David <br />Guetta ft. Kelly Rowland. (Hence, the title) Lately I’ve just been on that sad love songs<br />p. Contrary to what you may think, I have not by any chance ‘fallen in or out of<br />love’. Not that love is a bad thing, but I think it is extremely overrated. And <br />can be dangerously unhealthy especially when one of the parties involved ‘falls’ helplessly <br />for the other and hi/her’s love isn’t exactly reciprocated. <br /><br />Sometimes I wonder why people even bother to give love a shot after all the countless unhappy endings those before us have had as a result of ‘love’. Don’t get me wrong, I am not against love. I just don’t believe that most people actually understand the feelings they interpret as love. This applies especially to young people. I just don’t get why people just don’t settle for ‘like’. Why do they have to go all the way and profess ‘love’ for their gf or bf. To be honest, I find it rather nauseating when I see 14,15,16 year olds claiming to love their bfs or gfs. There’s nothing wrong in really liking someone. You don’t have to abuse the use of the word ‘love’ for people to take your relationship seriously! It’s funny how people think real life love is just like love in movies and songs.(we wish!)<br /><br />On the real though, if love were that easy, I’d probably be in love right now sef. Just like this movie Angel eyes; Jim Caviezel falls helplessly in love with J’lo after she saves him from a terrible car crash that kills his wife and his son. Obviously they go through the whole break up and make up stage(like any other book, movie or song!) then finally live happily ever after! I know there are a million more movies like that but believe me, that Angels eyes brought tears to my eyes. I could totally feel their love all the way from where I was sitting on my couch. It felt soooo magical. But then again, it’s a freaking movie! The point of the movie was to give it that effect. My love songs p probably started right after I watched that movie.<br /><br />Back in the real world, love can be rather discombobulating! There’s this girl I know that loves(or so she thinks) this guy I also know. The problem however is that the guy and her best friend are sooo close it’s hard to tell if the guy likes the best friend as a gf or as a good friend. Also, the best friend isn’t completely sure how she feels about the guy in question. So what does the babe do? Does she flick the love switch in her heart off if she finds out the guy does like(or perhaps love) her best friend? Is it really that easy to just stop loving somebody?<br /><br />According to some cold-hearted bastards, it is! Just the other day, I was watching Dr.90210. A lady requesting for a tummy tuck told us her story: she loved a guy. The guy also loved her. They got married. Their love was so magical and beautiful. They had a baby together. One day, when the baby was only a few months old, the lady found a text message from the guy’s mistress on his phone. She confronts him. He apologizes and decides that he’s choosing the mistress over his wife. He simply didn’t love her anymore. Just like that! After getting her pregnant(losing her figure and everything), he just left! <br /><br />I felt so bad for her! I just can’t imagine how she eventually pulled herself together( if love is as strong as they say it is). Left to me, that kind of rejection should be something you never recover from if you really did love the guy. (only if God intervenes sha).<br /><br />Even the legendary Romeo and Juliet love story didn’t end happy. As for me, I’d rather just be really fond of a guy, enjoy his company and respect him(and make out with him too! LOL). That way, if he messes up or my fondness just isn’t as it was, no hearts are broken.<br /><br /> It’ll forever remain a mystery to me why some people intently hand over their hearts to others knowing fully well that the future cannot be predicted.<br />Well people, be sure to love healthily if you must love at all. After all, some people do say “ ‘Tis better to have loved and lost than to have not love at all”. Try not to need your bfs and gfs too much. And don’t for any reason be inspired to be the modern day Romeo or Juliet. Trust me, no love is worth dying for ;) <br /> <br />Be safe! X<br /><br />Gf- girlfriend<br />Bf-boyfriend<br /><br />And if you’re interested in sad love songs too, I highly recommend<br />:Forever & always by Taylor swift(very touching!),I’m only me when I’m with you by Taylor swift, I knew I loved you before I met you by Savage Garden, love like this by Natasha Bedingfield, Part of the list by Ne-yo, Unfaithful by Rihanna and My life would suck without you by Kelly Clarksona hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-89182475647171796412009-10-29T13:39:00.000-07:002009-10-29T14:23:30.776-07:00....................So i dont reli hav anything interesting to say.<br /><br />yea..so i started Unilag last week....the first thing i have to say bout that is THE SUN IN UNILAG IS ON ANOTHER LEVEL!!! serzly! sun and me dont go well atal!! <br />apart from that i guess lag is reli not that bad. before i got ther i was expectin to seeee razzz yoruba speaking guys and girls errwher buh i was totally wrong. the ppl r actually aite. the classes r aite too i guess. thn therz ths mahd chicken place. their chicken is soooo skenzy!<br /><br />therz also lots ov fresh dudes! aseeenn...in my class ther r lyk 5 that hav caught my eye so far. sadly i dont tlk 2 ne ov em. i dont evn kno y. its lyk wen err body was formin their lil cliques nd all i wasnt der or sumn. nw errr1 has ppl dey roll with so iz kinda l8 4 me 2 try nd hang wiv ne1. therz ths 2 guys that r soo rude! like serzly, their rudeness disgust me! <br />lyk 1 day, i was walking wiv sum guy they knew nd they stop 2 say wasup,do that handshake thng guys do and totally IGNORE ME!!!! they dint evn try to avoid my eyes. they stared right at me thn walked away. the 2nd time, they wer seatin wiv som girl i kinda kno so wen i was passing by, the babe was like "hiiiii" nd im like "heyyyyy" nd they just stare right at me. nd they kept on staring lyk that! i was almost tempted 2 scream "its rude 2 stare!" mscheew.foolish boys. thn therz ths girl i fnk wnts 2 b my frnd buh d fng is tha i dnt reli hav tym 2 hang around the faculty nd 'be friends' wiv ha...<br /><br />another thing: its like the boys in my class r reli reli serz oh...like no joke...havnt seen ne ov thm tryna put the moves on ne girl...the senior boys(jeez! that's soooo high sch ryt?) k the upper-class men however r nt evn takin it ez wiv us freshmen atal...therz nowher i go that som1 doesnt offer to walk me, drive me,show me a short cut or jus talk 2 me!<br />uni boys! therz lots ov cute 1s tho...enuf bout skul jor<br /><br />i exed boyfy!!!! aseen i felt so weird evn callin him that...ugh! that boy got on my nerves mehn...u wldnt evn bliv hw i dd it! i snt him an offline msg on msn! yh. i kno im a coward! ha! buh serzly agreeing to b his gf was by far the stupidest lamest fng ive eva done in my lyf! lyk no joke! me that i used 2 smh at ppl that jus go out wiv nebody...thnk god it was jus a month sha...wen i nw tld bff1(the frnd dah was close 2 boyfy) she was nw lyk r u serz? i guess i dint reli kno him that well oh..she nw had the effontry 2 sae tis gud 4 me, nxt tym i wont go out wiv som1 i dint kno nefn bout!<br />i dint evn hav tym 2 remind ha tha she was the 1 hu tld me:hez a reli nyc dude oh,serzly...nd hez cute too(atal!). boyfy is jus d 1 i kinda feel bad 4...he musta bin soo vexd tha we dint evn get 2 make out like that...heheee..thank goodness 4 that!i dont evn kno if he reli gt the msg cuz he nw started txtin me more thn he used to evn afta saen if thaz wah i want tis cul...disgu! enuf bout him tew joh!<br /><br />nw 2 exciting news!! we might b movin!!! aseeen im sooo excited! im nt showin my mom ne excitement bout it tho cuz it seem ne tym i let ha kno hw excited i am, she pulls the rug ryt from unda me..lyk she dd wiv the whole goin 2 yankee 4 uni fng....hillzzz<br /><br />btw im stl vexin 4 my popsy...cn u imagine wat he sed? lemme tel u: wen i chkd my waec result, mumsy was lyk cal ur dad nd tel him oh...she nw cald him on ha fone nd was lyk hold on for (my name). next thing, he says, "what? you want money shey?" i was sooo weak! me nd my dad used 2 b soo cul! we usd 2 jus tlk bout random fngs, gossip bout my mom nd my sisters...i neva evn ask him 4 money! if i want money frm him i ususally snd my mom or my sista, i neva reli ask him! he nw sed such a hurtful fng! mschewww. parents!<br /><br />thats all i hav 4 nw...<br />peace nd love!a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-30244739551385130182009-10-17T18:00:00.000-07:002009-10-17T18:08:46.835-07:00:::mY QueST foR SeLf-aSsErTiVeNeSS:::Recently I’ve been thinking bout how much I’ve changed this past year. Turns out I’m not reli who I thought I was. Turns out I don’t reli lyk the things I thought I liked. I don’t reli hate the things I thought I hated. I’m not so good at the things I thought I was good at. I’m actually not as bad at the things I thought I was horrible at. *sigh* I guess I haven’t reli known myself these past years.<br /><br />I thought I hated country music. Asin, hate is even a mild word.<br />I thought green was the skenziest color in the whole wide world.<br />I thought bright-colored eye shadow was the ish.<br />I thought TAO was sooo cool.<br />I thought TWO was reli weird.<br />I thought my prom would be the bunzest day this year.<br />I thought Jonas brothers were a rock band.<br />I thought I’d b in UMD by now.<br />I liked plantain.<br />I believed I didn’t reli need make-up.<br />I thought I needed a bf.<br /><br /><br /> Taylor Swift is the best fng tha happnd 2 my iPod.<br /> I totally heart the color purple…green’s stl aite tho.<br /> I think smoky eyes r def the ish.<br /> I kno TAO is the most annoying guy I’ve ever known.<br /> I don’t think TWO is all that weird. Hez jus different.<br /> Prom wasn’t all that.<br /> I kno the Jonas bruvs r jus a two-hit wonder pop group.<br /> Unilag is my fate oh…for nw…<br /> I hate plantain…asin I cant stand it…<br /> I’ve realized make-up is pretty essential evn if it hardly shows.<br /> I kno I dint need a bf.<br /><br /><br />Also I found out I cant reli cook lyk I thot I cld. Asin all this tym mumc was naggin tha I’ll regret nt being in d kitchen wiv ha I thought yh yh, hu tld ths woman I cnt cook. I mean I cn mentally cook lots of things buh I neva hav the tym 2 try em out. Hmmmn. Do boys nowadays evn reli care if their future wives can cook? I don’t fnk so… I cn cook sum fancy stuff sha, buh sum ov the basics r a problem. Jus ydae, I made spaghetti and lez jus say it dint end up so good. Common spaghetti oh! I was so embarrassed! My mum was nw tryna act lyk it wasn’t dah bad…I would hav sooo preferred 4 ha 2 spark mehn…hw cnt I make mahd spaghetti at 16??!!! Hisss. D spaghetti itself wasn’t bad buh the sauce was ‘too red’. *sighs*<br /><br />Then I also found out I don’t hav a talent. I always thot my talent was writing buh I’m startin 2 fnk iz jus cuz I was too lazy to delve into any other activity lyk ballet(too late nw) or running(nt evn possible) or swimming or debate or drama(stage fright!). nw I feel lyk a total under-achiever. Lyk serzly I don’t hav any special skill that I cn use 2 compete against sum1 else. To me I believe that if u cant evn dare 2 compete against ppl wiv ur similar talent thn u’re probly nt tha talented. My mumc fnks I’m wrong bout that. She says err1 has 2 work on their talent reli hard b4 they cn compete and dah competition isn’t errthn in lyf. She may ryt sha. <br />Iz sha vexin dah afta reli feelin lyk sum writer, all of a sudden I feel lyk my stories suck! Asin I was evn considering publishing sum ov ths stories nd nw I feel lyk they’re totally worthless. Mayb I shoulda taken literature in sch. Serzly. All writers shld b able 2 write poems nd stuff dah rhyme ryt? Well I cant. So I’ll probly hav 2 work on a new talent. Any ideas??? *sigh*<br /><br />p.p.s I dint mention dancing or singing cuz I alredi kno I cn dance buh I don’t fnk I hav d tym 2 work on my moves 2 become reli talented and as for singing, im tone-deaf.<br /><br />P.s I’m sorry God, if I sound ungrateful.<br /><br />X<br />TAO-The annoying one <br />TWO-The weird one.a hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6623144642469098977.post-3832621824092796752009-10-10T15:40:00.000-07:002009-10-10T15:46:48.037-07:00~~::SAtdaE NyT rAmBLiNgS::~~Its probly stale gist that life is an unfair bitch. Buh reli, wat can one do? Nw to serz business <br /><br />I’ve become a jealous stalker!!! Lmao…buh serzly tho, I have. <br /><br />It started off wiv my bff’s leaving me nd startin uni. Iz nt lyk I’m 1 dumb olodo dah cldnt get into uni oh, I’m jus chillin 4 my stupid sch 2 start…<br />Sha errdae they’ll nw b txtin/callin me…givin the lowdown ov their nu skuls…huz hawt,huz not, huz razz, huz dumb, huz broke, huz a whore,huz a cross dresser blah blah…<br />Twas all fun in tha beginning, buh nw iz gerrin rather old...serzly…im tired ov hearin gist ov ppl that r(nd will neva) b related 2 my life…lyk 2dae 4 instance, I got lyk 55 txts frm bff1 bout hw shez settlin dwn,hw nyc ha room is, hw hot the guys r, hw ‘jus der’ the girls r,hw sum bbe wuz throwin herself shamelessly at sum guy. *rolls eyes*(yh, we’re shallow lyk that) lol .don’t get me wrong, im elated 4 my frnds…serzly…im real happy 4 them buh I jus cant take it nemore!!! Am usually the 1 wiv overflowing gist nd all, iz so one kind dah im d 1 jus goin: ‘r u serz?’ ‘omg,dd she reli??!’ ‘Ho my! He sounds hot oh!’.<br /><br />Bff2’s own iz jus d height! She keeps sayin d same gist over nd over again! The annoying part is wen shez bout 2 hang up she nw goes, “It’s reli cool tho. Really. I’m enjoyin it. Lots ov fresh ppl. Blah blah” thn she’ll nw be giggling lyk sum cute guy’s tickling ha. Msccheww. Lool.<br /><br />Jealousy will not kill me oooooooooooooooo. Lool…iz aite sha…I’d rather b hearin that my frnds r havin a ball thn hearin hw much they h8 their skul…<br /><br />Nw to the stalker business:<br />I don’t evn kno hw ths 1 started. It myt evn hav started on blogville oh…nah…yh, I rememba…he snt me a frnd req on fb. 4 nw lez jus call him “the smart one” (TSO) lol…sha I nw wnt 2 go nd shek howt TSO. I found out dah he wuz frnds wiv 1 ov my sista’s sorta ex-bff. D bbe is reli an allrite bbe so I accepted d req cuz ov ha(nd yh his pic wuz interesting). Sometime later, I found out that TSO was a writer. Considerin hw I hav a fng 4 guys wiv talent, I was instantly drawn 2 him. I started chkin out his notes on fb.(yh, im jobless lyk that).<br />Thn I find out bout his blog and I become immensely addicted to it! Nxt fng I kno, I bookmark his fb profile &his blog. In short, I know a whole lot bout ths guy nd hez only spoken(written) 3 words 2 me! Obviously I feel lyk a foolish stalker!<br /><br />Nxt came “the funny one” (TFO). Ths 1 has bin my frnd lyk eva since I joined fb. Aseeen sinceeeee...u kno that tym ppl jus used 2 add nebody that lukd aite nd probly had frends in common wiv. Sha 1 dae lyk ths I found myself in TFO’s notes. Ho my! Ths dude can write!!! Shettt…he cn write a book wiv james patterson mehn…for real…nd his style is so real,nd funny, nd young! I nw bookmarked his profile too. So basically, a dose ov 1 ov his notes errdae ‘makes the medicine go down’. Lol. Thn I began reading his wall,his posts,errfng bout him sha…asin TFO is soo funny! Plus we’ve got sooo much in common! We lyk d same kinda music, movies nd evn tv series! We’re jus meant to be mehn…only that hez only sed (written) bout 5 words 2 me. I hav a feelin he remembas I exist sha. kmt.<br /><br />Y cant the guys that I like, like me bak?!! Y don’t I like the ones that like me?! (including my so called bf??) **sighs** I tire mehn.<br /><br />I gotta do sumn bout boyfy mehn…ths has gone on long enuf…<br /><br />xa hopelessly clueless teenage gurl..http://www.blogger.com/profile/08163175515461390713noreply@blogger.com0